I want to be euthanised
I’m depressed out of my mind. I even paid for expensive useless therapy and the only advice i got was you’ve been through a lot, you deserve empathy, sleep if you feel like cry if you feel like. I’m so done fighting, i don’t have it in me anymore. I just went through a breakup and I’m dealing with a chronic illness that has no cure. I don’t want to continue living in a diseased body and with an illness that has no cure. I have pcos and hormonal imbalance. I have no libido because of it. My partner broke up with me because of it. I feel i will never be loved or chosen by someone. I don’t want to be destined to die alone. Euthanasia is not legal in my country so suicide is my only option. Everyday i wake up grieving the loss of the relationship and the fact that i will never recover. I’ve been trying to improve my health for months now but it doesn’t seem to improve even a little bit. Ive been to several doctors and no one showed me empathy or care. I was judged by them when i brought up sexual dysfunction as a symptoms. I don’t even feel human anymore. I’ve been enduring all this for months. I just want to go with dignity since living with dignity is no longer an option. My self esteem has taken a hit. I even carry childhood trauma where i was physically abused by my mother for decades. I have no siblings, i have no support from family. Finding a partner is no longer an option. I don’t want to live alone, i don’t want to live with condition forever, I’d rather be euthanised.