Asking myself if there was more SA
I was SA'ed at least once during the relationship. Some time later I woke up to my ex trying to rape me while I was sleeping. He tried everything so that I didn't wake up. I froze but after some time I was able to turn around and that was luckily enough to make him stop.
I'm out of the relationship and try to cope with all the abuse and the SA. I'm really struggling with the thought that he may have raped me other times while I was sleeping. I sometimes woke up and felt weird in my body almost like my body felt after the SA. During the relationship I often slept really deeply and even took sleeping meds. So it would have been possible for him to do it and for me to not wake up.
I know that nobody can give me answers but maybe someone had similar issues or thoughts. I tried to forget everything at that time but stuff keeps coming back now. I'm afraid that I could remember more but at the same time I want answers.