Born in Nepal grew up in America and not sure when I want to move back
im 22 i was born in nepal but grew up in america and lately my family been talking about eventually going back to nepal and living there permanently and i understand where theyre coming from because i love nepal too but i just dont think im ready for that life yet
i grew up in america and im an american citizen so i have the opportunity to stay here and actually build something for myself and thats what i wanna do while im young i wanna create stuff build a career make my own money become independent experience life and see what i can actually make out of myself here
im also almost done with my bachelors i actually wouldve finished at 21 but i took a gap year so im basically just getting to the point where i can start my career and build my own life which is another reason why moving permanently right now feels too early for me
its not like i dont see a future in nepal either my family already has land there and my parents plan on building a home and a separate farmhouse and hiring and paying people to work there so we already have a foundation for a life in nepal and wouldnt be starting from zero
honestly that sounds like a peaceful life i would actually want someday especially knowing my parents would be there but i just dont want that life at 22
i could see myself going there in my late 30s or 40s after ive had the chance to build something for myself make my own money and experience the life i wanna experience here first and then eventually be closer to my parents as we all get older
marriage been coming up too because im apparently nearing the age where im supposed to start thinking about getting married but im only 22 and i feel like im just starting my adult life
i do wanna get married someday but i wanna meet the right person and actually be ready for it not just do it because i reached some age where its expected
one of the weirdest parts about all of this is even tho i was literally born in nepal sometimes when i go back i feel like a tourist in my own country
im nepali and nepal will always be part of who i am but most of my growing up happened in america and this is where i became the person i am now so moving back to nepal permanently isnt as simple as just going home because america feels like home to me too
i love my family and i understand why they want that life and im not trying to choose america over nepal or myself over my family
i just want the chance to live my own life first spend my 20s and maybe some of my 30s building creating making money and seeing what i can actually do here
then when im older and established i can genuinely see myself going back to nepal being around my parents and enjoying the life they built there
i feel like i have two homes and i dont necessarily have to choose one forever
america now nepal later
any other nepalis who grew up abroad ever feel like this especially when it comes to moving back marriage and family expectations
