u/Embarrassed-Bed-2657

I've already came out to my parents at 9 (I know, I know). I'm not doing that for my other family, my parents are as accepting as possible and anytime I struggle, they tell me to live my life for me. They are the only people in the world I trust. I will not come out to the rest of my family (except for maybe my cousin since he's bi and in his 20s, so most likely more accepting). They will have to find out when I pull up to a family gathering with my girlfriend one day. I just want to live my life and not worry about trying to please other people for something I cannot control. When I grow up, I might just move out of the country, I can't do this in TN. I cannot live with my rights continuously being attacked. Thanks for listening. Sorry for the rambling nature, this is my first post and I wanted to vent and see if anyone else has decided not to come out.​

Obviously, racism is everywhere on youtube, even on the most innocuous videos. People will say you may need to change up the content you are consuming and I've done that and have been strict about not watching any political content, especially conservative content as when I was in the 8th grade (11th now) it started affecting my mental health and I stopped before it could affect me more. I refuse to self-hate. However, it seems like youtube just does whatever the hell it wants and has started recommending me iffy videos (don't worry, I haven't watched). So now, I'm limiting my self on YouTube/ non-black spaces. Since it's summer, I'm doing like last year and brushing up on my education, completed a summer class (completely aced it), and reading books/going to the library, and also helping my male parent with the truck. The book I am reading now with my parents is called, "Out of Africa" by Isak Dinesen. It is about this person farm in Africa, circa 1914 and has been a very interesting read. This is my first post here, sorry for the messiness, I wanted to participate in the community and share a problem I had and my way of dealing with it, and also share my favorite book. I hope to be more active in this beautiful community. 🤎🤎