u/EmbarrassedDig4422

I hinted my therapist that I might have social anxiety problems but it feels like she brushed it off and she said that other people can also be anxious about social interactions and other people might also be scared to do something or to look stupid in front of others.

I feel so invalidated. I was always scared to tell someone that I’m afraid to do ordinary things that people do every day bc they might laugh at me or they can think that I lie.

And I was also scared to tell my therapist that I might have social anxiety because I was scared she can think I’m imagining things. And she knows that I’m scared of it.

Maybe she didn’t want bad for me but I still feel unheard. I feel not understood but I can’t complain about it to her.

It feels like everyone tells me “no you don’t have social anxiety. You’re a liar, you don’t have problems. You just don’t want to do anything”.

“Other people can also have fear of social interactions.” Then why can they do that and I can’t? Why can’t I do things I see people do every day even if they feel anxious?

When I tell my therapist my mom hurt me she(my T) tells me to think why my mom did what she did. And my T wants to hear that my mom wanted best for me and she explains my mom’s struggles.

Then I was kinda scared to tell my T about my ex friend who hurt me as well. I was scared that she will justify her as well. And she did the same, she asked the same question and tried to tell me maybe my friend wanted better for me. But that’s what my ex friend constantly told me, that she wants better for me but every time she hurt me. And I was feeling trapped for so long bc I was scared to leave this friendship. I was scared to make her angry and I am still scared of her.

I hinted to my T that I have social anxiety problems( I say hinted bc I feel ashamed to tell someone about my problems bc it feels like they’re not real and I’m just imagining things. I also explained that to my T that I feel like I’m imagining my problems). But it feels like my T doesn’t think I have a problem bc she said everyone can feel scared sometimes in social interactions and that’s normal. But I don’t feel normal!? I can’t do many things that other ordinary people do bc I’m scared.

When I tell her my problems she always tells me that’s normal. Honestly it feels so invalidating to me. Again I feel like I don’t have any problems and I just created all of this.

When I told her I feel like I am not a normal person, that I feel like a weird she told me I am normal. But I am not???? I don’t feel like I fit in this society. And I would like to hear that it’s okay to be weird rather than I’m normal.

Sometimes I feel like she’s projecting some of her feelings/problems onto me.

When we talk about my work my T tells me that I am a good specialist but I am not. And she probably thinks that I say it because I have imposter syndrome or something but I am really not a good specialist. I don’t know if I want to work at this job and I kinda don’t want to improve. And every time she reminds me that I’m a good specialist and I can’t say anything.

Every time I have a therapy session I think it’s the last time I do this but I return again and again.

I’ve read people saying that therapists say normal not to invalidate but I can’t help and feel bad because of it.