u/EmbarrassedDriver585

For context, I'm (19F) a second year college student and I have a sister (17F) na naglayas from home. We're from a province, and I'm staying in the city to study. Around more than an hour ang byahe from our home and the city.

And I admit, my family is fucked up. Totally fucked. And I also admit, I feel like my life is better than my sister because at least for me, I'm not staying in that hell-like house na parang nasa hukay ang isa mong paa habang tulog ka. At least ako, hindi ko naririnig lahat ng sigawan, mura, at away ng mga magulang namin. At least ako, kahit mag isa lang ako dito, ay hindi ko sila kasama.

Just kanina, my sister messaged me saying pupunta sya sa akin qnd dito daw sya matutulog. At first— until now— I was hesirant. Sabi ko baka di ako payagan ng landlady ko, which is true kasi bawal bisita sa boarding house na tinutuloyan ko. But she was persistent, talagang pilit na pilit gustong maglayas. I told her I can offer her NOTHING. Emphasis on nothing cus that is the truth. Studyante pa lamang ako and idk wtf to do in this kind of situation. And whenever I asked her what happened, sagot nya sasabihin lang daw nya pagkakita namin.

And so, shit happens and so be it. Pinayagan ko but sabi ko uuwi sya sa bahay pagkatapos nyang magkwento kasi I thought she just needed her ate— this wasn't the first time.

So ayun, dumating sya. Kwento nya binugbog daw sya ng punyetang papa namin. Sabi ay nagalit daw si papa kasi ginamit ng sister ko ang shirt nya tapos parang ang sobra ng galit ng papa namin kaya nagdabog daw ang sister ko. Edi mas lalonv nagalit si papa, binalik balikan sya sa kwarto nya at sinuntok ang likod at bugbog daw. At some point nasira pa ang door knob sa kwarto ng sister ko.

Nakakanginig. Tanginang yan. Potangina.

Hindi ko alam anong gagawin ko. Kwento pa ng sister ko, natatakot sya umuwi. Mamamatay daw sya doon. Kaya I became shameless and asked my landlady if ok ba mag stay sya dito for tonight at umoo naman yung landlady.

But honestly? Idk, I really don't know what the fuck to do. I don't know who to run to. I don't know who to talk. I don't know. What the fuck hindi ko alam.

I tried to talk and forced my sister na umuwi na. Kasi kilala ko yung magulabg namin eh, damay na ako. It may sound selfish pero putangina takot na takot din akong madamay. Putangina.

Pero ayaw nya talaga. Takot daw sya. At naiintindihan ko naman yun, kasi ako nga takot eh pani pa kaha sya na bugbog?

Pero pucha naman, anong magagawa namin. Putangina naman. May pasok pa ako bukas eh. Tangina ano ng mangyayari bukas? Tapos yung cellphone pa ng kapatid ko na iphone ay na disable kasi apple ID ng mama ko gamit nya, kaya ayon putangina wala na disable na ni mama. Putangina hindi ko na alam.

Tangina nakakagalit. Gusto ko nga mag post doon sa offmychest PH pero putangina hindi enought karma points ko. Hindi ko alam may babasa ba nito at makakatulong pero tangina ang bigat sa dibdib eh.

I'm glad that my sister can freely ask for her ate, but wtf. Why am I the ate? I'm so tired. But I don't want to be a narc and act like I'm the one hurting the most pero tangina. Ang sakit, ang bigat.

Please, I don't know what to do. Or maybe deep down I know but I'm just scared.

For context, 2nd year nursing student here and it’s our first case presentation but we weren’t inform until Saturday that the presentation would happen this Tuesday. And yesterday (Sunday) we had our pre assessment in the hospital and everyone had their own tasks and responsibilities for their NCPs, drug studies, etc. PS. one patient-one student Kami.

At the same time kahapon pa kami pumili ng patient for the case pres and kagabi pa nagsimula talaga sa paper. Our leader recommended to divide the tasks since it's A LOT to handle talaga. But some of our members said na initiative na lang kung sino may time at tapos na sa ginagawa niya ay simulan na yung group case pres namin.

Around 1 am, hindi pa nagsesend ng patient's data yung isa namin na member (sya may alam kasi sya student nurse ng pt) and dahil sobra antok na me nakatulog ako at paggising ko aroung 4am nakasimula na yung 2 namin na member na leader-like kumbaga.

AND I FEEL SO GUILTY KASI SOBRANG BARE MINIMUM NG AMBAG KOO

But I keep telling myself na 10 members naman kami so like ykwim huhu. But at the same time kasi nagpaparinig na yung isang member namin na yung walang initiative jan nyenye kaya inooverthink ko what if ako na yon. But I swear, I did something just not the same amount of some of our members.

Wala lang, this is just a very random ganap/rant.