I miss my mom. I can’t explain how much my heart hurts thinking about her. My mom is still alive but she’s let her mental health take over her, growing up she has always been abusive, mentally and physically her and my dad would beat me and my siblings with belts, tree branches, fly swatters, cords and hangers. Growing up people said it was normal but i don’t think you should ever do that to anyone let alone 5-8 year olds. My parent sexually abused me when i was 5 its a foggy memory but i told my mom when i was 15 and i thought she was going to leave him i really did, she yelled at me and blamed me and told me i was lying it broke my heart i remember the soul leaving my body as i walked back to my room, i locked my door and then my mother proceeded to tell the man who raised me (dad) and he was trying to break into my door, and i remember sitting in the corner of my room on my bed crying hoping he wouldn’t come in and he do and started to yell at me and proceeded to tell me that i was a liar and that i should never make up accusations like that bc they can ruin someone’s life, after that and a couple of things that my mother had done that had traumatized me and my siblings i can’t forgive her i just can’t i miss her i miss who she was before i knew what kind of person she was the one memory that i cherish was when i was in kindergarten drawing with her before school, the last time i felt her love before my dad cheated, before her depression got the best of her, i miss that her every day i want to go visit her more but i just can’t get over that she didn’t believe me.
u/EmbarrassedFlight406
I miss my mom. I can’t explain how much my heart hurts thinking about her. My mom is still alive but she’s let her mental health take over her, growing up she has always been abusive, mentally and physically her and my dad would beat me and my siblings with belts, tree branches, fly swatters, cords and hangers. Growing up people said it was normal but i don’t think you should ever do that to anyone let alone 5-8 year olds. My parent sexually abused me when i was 5 its a foggy memory but i told my mom when i was 15 and i thought she was going to leave him i really did, she yelled at me and blamed me and told me i was lying it broke my heart i remember the soul leaving my body as i walked back to my room, i locked my door and then my mother proceeded to tell the man who raised me (dad) and he was trying to break into my door, and i remember sitting in the corner of my room on my bed crying hoping he wouldn’t come in and he do and started to yell at me and proceeded to tell me that i was a liar and that i should never make up accusations like that bc they can ruin someone’s life, after that and a couple of things that my mother had done that had traumatized me and my siblings i can’t forgive her i just can’t i miss her i miss who she was before i knew what kind of person she was the one memory that i cherish was when i was in kindergarten drawing with her before school, the last time i felt her love before my dad cheated, before her depression got the best of her, i miss that her every day i want to go visit her more but i just can’t get over that she didn’t believe me.