u/EmmaTheOtter

Edit: I figured it out
So basically, I got a new phone (my dad's old phone), which doesn't matter cause I don't think that caused this, but anyways, I downloaded Roblox on it. When I opened it or tried logging in (I can't really remember how, I'm pretty sure I just opened the app), I got logged into someone else's account??? Which right now I'm in the midst of trying to figure out who owns this account because maybe it's someone I know or something which would cause this to happen but so far I have nothing. They didn't even have me added on Roblox, and their phone number (I can only see the last 4 digits) and Gmail (can only see the first letter) do not correlate with any email I own, nor any phone number I've texted or called, so I don't know what's going on. If it is a randos account, this seems like a big security concern, but ionknow yet.

CW: Talk of suicide

So basically, I turned 18 last month, and my parents finally let me get my license last weekend. But the moment I got my license or like later that day, my mindset started changing, and I felt like an adult for the first time or at least very mature, but there was an underlying like sense of dread or something idk. But since then, my motivation has just completely disappeared for school and really anything. And I've been contemplating ending it because I feel like worthless and like my life is going down the drain, I guess??? cause my rooms not cleaned and it's too much effort to clean it, I don't feel like I'm doing anything meaningful, and I feel really burnt out, and a whole bunch of other feelings. And yesterday my gf was acting strange cause she wasn't texting as much as she usually does and she didn't call or pick up when I called her (I've been feeling distant I guess cause she always wants to hang out all the time and all that) but later into the day I become really obsessive I guess and just really wanted to talk to her or something and hang out really badly, and she wouldnt pick up or let me join her in a game we play alot. Eventually, she told me that we should take a break indefinitely which kind of made me really really depressed and I started like thinking of auctually ending it or idk something because it feels like everything is suddenly changing and moving so fast as soon as I got my license cause my parents were on my back starting this weekend about getting a job and I graduating soon and just theres so much stress and I dont know how to cope or whatever. And this morning I just had no motivation and didnt want to do anything or talk to anyone I just wanted to cry but I did eventually get up to go to school. But idk man I just feel like shit and that im being pushed way to quickly into adulthood and im not mentally prepared and I dont really feel like I have anyone to talk too. Im also very tired so I dont even know if this yapfest makes anysense. Also for context or smthn on top of bpd I have autism (was diagnosed with aspergers before they stopped using that term), adhd, and ODD. Since my mind scattered ill put stuff in the comments I forgot or mabye like more context idk.