u/Emotional-Piano9059

Ever since I was a kid, I wanted one thing: to win. Not to be above everyone, not to be special, just to feel like life was finally on my side for once. But I never did. I lost again and again, every battle, every hope, every version of myself that tried to stand back up. There were times I was so tired I wanted to kill myself, but somehow I still tried again, and guess what, I’m still losing. Every time something starts to look good, every time I can almost see a future, it falls apart badly, like life is punishing me for hoping. Fuck man, I don’t even want answers anymore. I just want to hug someone and cry. I’m so tired of fighting. I just wanted to win once.

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I’m deciding between getting a MacBook Air M5 for around $1100 or a MacBook Pro M1 Pro with 32GB RAM and 1TB SSD that I’m being offered locally for 270,000 PKR which is about $970 based on current rates, I mainly do AI and development work and care about performance and long term value, I’m unsure how the older M1 Pro compares to a newer Air in 2026 and whether it still makes sense to go for it, should I get this or just buy the newer Air?

Also I'll ask somebody to buy Air from the US .