u/Emotional_Fox_1282

I swear they're the root to my nightmares sometimes.

I'm constantly worrying that people secretely don't actually like me and just like 'tolerate' me if that makes sense?

Like if i notice anyone more distant than usual it can send me spiralling for days (and sometimes having panic attacks depending on if I'm already stressed or if its with multiple people), and then often when i see them again they're just back to normal.

I think it could be due to my naivity in the past, having trusted people that i thought were my friends but had ill intentions for me.

It makes it extremely difficult to trust people, and i constantly go through phases of not trusting people because I'm afraid to, and i convince myself that they actually hate me but just put up with me being around coz they have to.

With the dream thing, its a bit unrelated, but i get reoccurring nightmares and there was one the other night where i was in my house and there was something outside and i couldn't lock the door and it was trying to get in. The 'thing' trying to get in is often different things, but i believe the house being 'insecure' symbolises my constant insecurity in my friendships. I woke up at 4am and was extremely tempted to go check the doors but i just scrolled on reddit until morning because i was afraid I'd sleep and have more nightmares. I only got like 3 hours of sleep (I'm a night owl and usually only get to sleep at like 1am).

The idea that the dream symbolised that kinda solidified for me that night, because the day before i had been very stressed about an instance where it felt like my friend had picked someone (who she has claimed she hates several times) over me, which just got me thinking that probably means she hates me more than she hates them. (I'm still untrusting that she does actually like me)

Most of the time i can't tell if I'm just overthinking things but i know sometimes I'm not, which definitely makes me overthink things even more

Does anyone else get this?

I'm only diagnosed with autism, (not with anything else like anxiety) so I'm just curious if this is a normal thing for other people with autism like me? (Like as a byproduct due to social struggles)

I'm autistic myself and this really annoyed me.

Like this happens way too much that even i get told i sound like an AI when i talk. Wth? I'm a real person

To be clear she is talking about REAL LIFE, not thinking people online are AIs.

I wasn't actually involved in this conversation, i just heard it from a distance

I'm pretty sure they talked about me too

Within earshot? Like how ignorant???

Girl i don't even know you???

But legit saying that people don't have any personality, when you don't even fucking talk to them, is just horrible. Like I don't know YOU, so am i just gonna go round telling people i think you're an NPC with no personality because I've never ever talked to you in my life?? NO

Like ew why are u tryna build up a crowd against us, othering us, and tryna make out like we're the crazy ones. Have u seen yourself? This obsession with tryna alienate people is disgusting

This happened the other week as well with somebody different (still NT), saying that she doesn't get why quiet people can't 'just talk' and calling them boring. She was saying that being on their own is their own fault and ONCE AGAIN that they have no personality

Wth??

Once again, YOU DO NOT KNOW US, THAT'S WHY YOU DON'T KNOW OUR PERSONALITIES. It's fricking common sense guys. No wonder people don't wanna talk to you when you're hating on them for just existing 😭

I swear they all have a lack of empathy, it's awful.

And to think autistics are usually the ones labelled as 'incapable of giving empathy', girl i feel more empathy than you ever will.

Rant over, thanks guys 🙏

Does anyone really hate fizzy drinks?

Like i cannot stand the feeling of it at all, to the point even if i had to drink them to survive i wouldn't be able to (not exaggerating, i literally can't drink them)

I don't get how people manage it

I'm wondering if this might be an autism sensory thing. I've heard about people having issues with foods, which i don't have at all, but i definitely have it with drinks. Not just fizzy drinks, like i only drink water, milk, orange flavoured cordial and sometimes orange juice (smooth ofc)

Does anyone else have this?