We still talk even after he said he doesn’t have feelings for me
Okay, me and him have been friends from December. We have known each other from November or something but totally hated each other. Then, his friend and my friend started dating and idk how we ended up in a friend group. In December, we got totally wasted and had a lot of fun. Then we went(the whole friend group) on a trip, there we spent quality of alone time with each other. Which swept away the hate that was between us. Then, we started talking not just when we were with out friend group but also a lot more alone. A few days after that,I realised that I started growing feelings for him. But then soon after that, he got back with his ex.
By this point of time, out friend group was getting smaller due to some other reasons. So, it was just our friends who were dating, him and I. Then we had to go on a research trip, obviously the couple wants to have their own space. Which led to giving us our own space. He had a girlfriend then. But still we hanged out platonically, while I had feelings for him. During that trip, we got wasted and made out. I felt super bad about it and didn’t talk about it the next day morning also. Even he acted as if nothing haf happened between us.
I tried letting him go cause he is someone else’s boyfriend. One week later, he tells all of our friends and me that he broke up with her. When everyone asked why, he looked into my eyes and told that she dumped him which I felt was a lie. I was happy that maybe he broke up with her because he feels guilty for making out with me? That night is when we started talking again.
For almost like 2 months, a day didn’t pass by with us hanging out or talking with each other. Those mid night calls, him telling me that no one else matters to him more than me. We even planned a secret trip, just the two of us without anyone knowing. Now like around 20 days earlier, I was drinking with my couple friends *he wasn’t with us. After I drank, I start talking about him and told them everything we did.
The couple, they really care a lot about me and they said ask him about you both making out. They didn’t force me into confessing and asking about stuff. But they kinda influenced me, so I did ask him if he remembers that we made out. And guess what NO, I wasn’t so shocked cause deep down, I kinda felt he doesn’t remember it. Then, it led to me confessing my feelings. He acted like it came out of nowhere and told he always saw me like a special friend and that’s it.
After that we didn’t talk for about 13 days, then I drunk called him and he said you didn’t have to tell everyone we made out. Firstly I didn’t tell everyone, it was just two people who we both trust equally. Secondly, all of our friends saw the chemistry between us way before We or I mean, I started to feel something for him. He doesn’t have to just throw away my feelings just because I told my friends about us making out. I don’t quite remember what else we talked that day. But, after that we talked irl a few times. And we have our finals going on right now. He calls me up at 3am, before an exam few days ago, a subject which I don’t even have, and asks me doubts regarding it. After that, its just a few interactions irl.
Do I call him? Is he waiting for me to take the next move as he has already taken one? Or do I just shut up and wait? What am I supposed to do?