u/Emotional_Poetry3139

As you all know after watching porn dopamine surges and the brain trying to rectify this surge then plummets dopamine waaay beyond baseline.

Now that’s bad - but if you’ve ever experienced hours of gooning (I’m talking 6-8h straight) you will know the dopamine crash that comes after that is far far far more severe than just simply relapsing to porn.

Both are bad but the way you are emotionally, physically and mentally shattered after your long gooning marathons is far worse

To those who understand what I’m talking about - the feeling of not even having the strength or energy to get up from bed, to not even have the drive to eat or drink and to just wish for the days to pass by

How do you recover?

Assalamu alaykum ww

As the title says, I feel like a munafiq and it really hurts. I’m not making this post to say that I am helpless or hopeless and I know that Allah is the most forgiving and the most merciful and with the help of Allah I will never lose hope in his mercy. His mercy is all I can rely on to save me. Allah is far greater than anything and there is nothing like him and I know this. Therefore I know not to lose hope in him and I will continue to try my best to fight this and to make tawbah and repent every time I fall. Nonetheless I feel like a munafiq.

I pray all my salahs, I pray nawafil salahs, I recite and memorise the Quran, make my adhkar and make dua. Anyone who looks at my life outwardly would even assume I am a pious individual but my sins are so severe and evil. When I think about the things I’ve done I feel evil…

I don’t sin in front of the people yet I sin knowing Allah sees me. I feel in my heart like I disrespect Allah over and over and over again. He shows me rahmah even though I’m completely undeserving of it. He treats me exactly the opposite of how I treat him.

I am sooo unbelievably undeserving of all the gifts he has given me and I recognise that yet at the same time I continue to sin. And it hurts me when I reflect on that. When I make tawbah I feel hurt because I know Allah will forgive me and I want to be forgiven but I don’t deserve it.

Allah is so incredibly merciful and I am so incredibly evil. I know Allahs mercy outweighs my evil but when I think about his rahmah I can’t help but feel so hurt that I did what I did and do what I do.

Idrk what this post exactly is. It’s sort of a rant/vent. I’m just sharing what I feel in my heart.

I fear I am a munafiq and I don’t want to be one.

Reason why I relapsed was because the urge appeared and i didn’t have a plan for how to deal with it and would like some advice on that

A lot of the time you hear that when an urge comes you basically need to not give it attention and soon enough it will pass. Urges are like waves… so when it comes stop what you are doing and do something else. Disrupt the wave and attention. People advise take a shower, do some push ups or do something else

My issue is my urges often come at night when I’m trying to go to sleep. My soul job at that point is to literally be in bed on my own doing nothing. In those scenarios i find it hard to not feed the urge if that makes sense? It’s like, the more I think about not doing it, in reality I’m just wearing and tearing my self restraint and eventually end up giving in.

Anyone got advice on how to manage urges in light of the fact that it’s bed time?

What “protocol” should I fall back on when an urge hits? I think part of the reason I relapsed recently was because I simply wasn’t prepared with dealing with it so I don’t want to repeat that mistake.

Hopefully I can make it longer this time or even break free

Salam brothers and sisters. Here’s the context.

I’ve been addicted to pornography for more than a decade now. The extent of my addiction has varied in levels where at times I’ve been able to survive a few months, other times where I’m failing or relapsing multiple times for multiple days in a row.

Recently alhamdulillah Allah has saved me and allowed me to be free from it for 17 days which is the longest period I’ve stayed away from it in a very long time. But the urges are strong recently. Any advice on how to manage it?

Jzk