u/Emotional_Silver_99

Today exactly I’m 4 months postpartum since my miscarriage, can’t help but to have all the feeling in the world, all the what if. Today I would have been 24 weeks pregnant with twins. I’m laying in bed crying my heart inside out. Because why, why does it have to be this way? and why do we go through this? what would have happened if didn’t loose my babies? what would they be like ? wow! life can be so much sometimes and nothing at the same time. We were so excited for this new chapter and twins omg there no history on my family this is just bizarre to me. Let alone first time pregnant. I just hate the 6th of every month. Sorry for the mind dump but I hope I’m not the only one who has these thoughts. And yes I do go to therapy every week sometimes every day if I’m feeling heavy because that’s the beauty of grief one day great the next day 🌬️☠️ but none the less it’s a process horrible one but a process. I thought of getting a subtle tattoo the day of my due date. Would’ve geez look at this 😭 I just want my mom to hug me because what is going on, that’s another thing being away from your family in a foreign country just with your partner. I love and adore my partner but ain’t no love like your own mum. God hold me tight today and always 🐞

*if you don’t believe in God whatever dog,cat or frog you believe in will do. Be nice ☹️

I been with my boyfriend for 6 months now, I found out I was with child January but I meet him November. Never been with child before, 2 weeks after i found out I started discharging brown the OB who was looking after us was not doing a good job. Giving us the I’m ready to retire kind of vibe. Long story short I miscarried… 7 w twin. They don’t run in my family but on his they do, he has 12 pair of twins. The ER said they were identical so that makes some sense. After my 6 weeks I got my period( 2 day worth and that was it)… the following moth I discharge brown for 2 weeks and it stopped. Finally on May I had a normal 1-5 no brown discharge at all also well oddly enough my new gyne order a transva… ultrasound and they saw a mature follicle and the day after I was ovulating indeed. ( I do ovulations strips and long them into Pregmate as well as keep them on a notebook ) So that’s good. With my new gyne I wanted to rule out PCOS which they did so far… now I don’t know if I had PCOS ever in my life or anything other syndromes or diagnostic. I don’t have the typical string of pearls, and I’ve only ever gotten 3 hairs on my face that was in January I plug them out and never seen them again. My period before was a mix of normal day and old blood.. not good right. So now that I don’t have PCOS how can I go on to prep for a healthy body to withhold with child…
Houston TX is my local area if you lovely ladies have any recommendations on holistic health. Traditional Chinese or western health anything and all is welcome 🥺💗

F(23) first time pregnant had a MC at 7 weeks identical twins. Never before had a diagnosis of PCOS or anything else. Last Dr. appointment they did some test to see if I had PCOS
Testosterone total 72 high normal <55
Testosterone free 8.7 high normal <7.4
After viewing the results requested Pelvic ultrasound to evaluate ovaries, Hormonal labs (LH, FSH, DHEA-S) Fasting insulin, glucose, and A1C to assess for insulin resistance, Progesterone level (to confirm ovulation) and testosterone again.
What else should be considered as far as test ?
If PCOS is a diagnosis…
Next Dr appointment is soon at this point 5 days after last period.