does anyone else feel like this?
I don’t really know how to describe it, but does anyone ever feel like they’re disconnected from their family and culture? For some background info, I’m Canadian and I was born there but my parents are Lebanese then my siblings were born in Saudi Arabia. I can speak Arabic a tiny bit, but I understand it more. I’m currently visiting Lebanon with my mom and dad, and just whenever we’re with family I don’t really feel like I understand them. Not mostly in a way because of language, but in a way we’re not connected like family is. When they come over, I’m happy to say hi and I sit with them, but just in silence. I don’t feel like I ‘know’ these people. I can’t speak with them and I can’t relate to them so how can we connect like family? Back at home, we used to live in an area with some POC, but then my parents moved me to an all-white school so there wouldn’t be any ‘problems.’ I don’t really have any friends who understand my perspectives or anything about my culture. I know it’s on me to do things like pray and fast during Ramadan, but I just never have the motivation to do so knowing I don’t understand the point behind it. I know it’s not my parents fault but I wish they pushed me more to learn these things 😭