Finch Loss and Starting Over
I love my finch so much but having a really difficult time moving past something that happened. Especially with today being the 5th anniversary. I know it may sound silly but I started with my first finch almost immediately after it came out. I had her for 3 years and something months and a long streak. I got hospitalized two summers ago and got diagnosed with T1D and had to get a new phone so I could use my Dexcom and insulin pump… finch wasn’t really on my mind for a couple weeks as I was extremely sick and in DKA. Anyway, when I got my new phone I wasn’t able to recover my finch account and I didn’t have it in my to start over. Eventually I made a new account but still couldn’t bring myself to interact. I finally started interacting daily again last month but just can’t get past the loss and regret of all my old work and items being gone. I always had plus and made sure to do everything.
I just wish I could move on and enjoy finch again and I know I will get there. But it just feels like a new bird of course and it feels like I lost something special, being there from the beginning. I now only have a 17 day streak and very few items and it just feels like none of my hard work from before counts anymore. I’m just saying this not for sympathy but just to vent and feel understood by someone hopefully. I know it’s weird to be so hung up on this but I was so attatched to her.
Pictured is my new bird who I adore. I wish I put as much into raising her as I did with the first one but was disheartened.