I spent my whole life thinking FFT wasn't for me.
I'm currently at the point of no return, after Mullonde, and before I finish this game, I wanted to write about what has honestly been one of the most unexpected experiences I've ever had.
I'm 23, and I've played a lot of games growing up. Sadly, Final Fantasy Tactics is not one of those. I'd heard people calling it a masterpiece, The best Final Fantasy story, and one of the greatest tactical RPGs ever. And every time, I just assumed it wasn't for me.
One day I was on a trip to retro lane and was finishing up on Xenogears which took me over 70hrs, then I discovered The Lion War of the Lions, a romhack that back ports the PSP version to the original PS1 and something about the crisp pixel art on the original had caught my attention, and a week later I decided to finally try it.
Fresh out of Xenogears yet I fell completely in love with Ivalice. The medieval themes, class divide, religious entities as political powers, commoners who suffer the downfall, were all part of our history packed into a game that clearly aspires to be a fantasy spin-off of the War of the Roses, which in turn has inspired many modern anime and light novel tropes of demons manipulating humans from the shadows. But half of what carries this whole thing for me is Ramza and Delita. Ramza is the best representation of a naive protagonist I've seen. He genuinely believes in people, and that belief gets tested again and again as he slowly loses things he couldn't save and watches Ivalice fall further into chaos. This is in contrast to who Delita has become. He sees the rot and has given up hope in people; he sees the larger system and no longer cares to discern which of it is rotten and which is not. They both recognize that Ivalice is broken, but where Ramza keeps trying to save the people trapped inside it, Delita has decided the world itself needs to be torn apart to be created anew.
And despite my rigid use of just generics, Ramza has never felt alone in his battles. He has an ensemble of the most random comrades that clearly serve different beliefs, yet they all fight by his side willingly. These people have no reason to join his cause, yet they do, all so they could hold their heads high and endeavor alongside the protagonist who has never once given up on hoping. Hoping to save those in need, hoping to end the suffering, the conflict, even if he is all by himself. These people gather before him not only because they are indebted, but because they too believe in the greater purpose he continues to uphold: that they are doing something right, even if the world thinks they are wrong.
And now, after everything, it all comes back to Orbonne. The place where this journey began will be where I make my last stand. It's been one hell of a trip. From being baptized by flames and arrows at Dorter to where I can comfortably clear enemies in two turns at Mullonde, I've loved practically every moment of it. I haven't finished yet but I already know this is a game I'll hold dear for the rest of my life.
Final Fantasy Tactics is the best game I've ever played. I will die on this hill.