my depression, my mood swings, my *tw:shing..... everything is getting worse. I just want to sleep I dont even want to go school today. I want to sleep I want to sleep I want to sleep.
he used to help me with this ... ugh
lately ive been so depressed and empty. I miss him bc he understood this. we both had family issues we bonded on. idk I just want to rant to him
I met him when I was 12, and he was 22, and going thru a weird phase with having internet friends bc I feel hard to relate to those around me and wanting friends but not too much pressure that being irl can do. there were times he'd send me dp pics when he got really drunk, then apologize in the morning, saying he thought he was messaging a different Maria (I left him on seen) but then it would keep happening with the same excuse or something dumb. that was just one thing tho in this whole 2 yr thing. anyway, it's been a year since we cut contact and I miss him💔
f15 a few years ago, my dad was drunk and came into my room and woke me up to licking my vagina. we barely have a relationship as he likes alcohol more than his family. in the moment, I froze. idk if he knew I was up but he fingered me for like 10 minutes after that then pulled my bottoms up and left the room. we've never talked about it