Corporate Creative Project Management role opportunity - worth a try? Or am I out of class?
Hey,
A bit of a hard topic for me, so bare with me. I am 33 years old, I hold a BA and I am currently working on my Master's.
Unfortunately, due to personal life issues, failed relationships, wrecked mental health, my career never really took off the way I wished it did when I was younger.
I used to work freelance as a marketing consultant, branding development, some creative, working with predominantly B2C businesses (and crypto, whelp). Branding, social media communication, e-mail marketing and etc.
At first it was great, had a good team, some of whom I developed friendships, but as time went on, I started stagnating. Lead acquisition became difficult, my colleagues started having their own difficulties keeping up with deadlines - trust deteriated, I couldn't handle other people accountable. Started underdelivering hard. A lot of it lead to burnt down bridges.
Abandoned everything and decided to look for employment opportunities. I had savings, I could allow that. Big mistake - should have spent that money on a mortgage. Couldn't find a job. Massive imposter syndrome. I found myself in a spot where I am either compeltely overqualified or underqualified. The job hunt slowed down, found it difficult keeping myself motivated. My self-esteem, my skills, everything deteroriated. Most of all, I didn't even imagine what role I could see myself in.
Anyway, that's the context.
Recently, I started trying to get in to momentum and look for a job again. I'm not sure why, but I've been avoiding jobs at large corporations. Recently, I saw a job at LIDL as a Creative Project Manager and it was one of those job adverts, where as soon as I read it, I was "Wait, that's what I have been doing!". I feel like I check most of the requirements.
But now my imposter syndrome is kicking in again. Is my experience of working in a small team transferrable to a corporation? Am I aiming higher than I should? I have never worked in a corporation, so even if I do land a job, how does the onboarding process look like??
And one of my biggest issues is I feel I am all about soft-skills and lack hard skills that are quantifiable. I remember I talked to a vocational couch and she told me I am downplaying myself - pitching, briefind, keeping track of the workflow, lead acquisition and etc. to me seem like very basic skills. Maybe a part of it is because I don't really use any academic frameworks to define what I do? A lot of it seems like common skills, intuition and etc.
It already feels hard getting in to the job market after 4 years of degradation. It's something I'd love to do and want to prepeare myself, so even if I get rejected, at least I have something to latch on and have a clear trajectory.
Is there anyone here who works as a PM here? I really would love to talk. Have so many questions.