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I (28F) met this guy (35M) on a mental health/listener-type platform 8 months ago. I was going through a heartbreak and a career crisis, and he helped me through it. We weren't flirting. It was all platonic and supportive.
We have weekly 1:1 chats scheduled and talk for a couple of hours. (He does this for other people too.) He is genuinely one of the kindest people I've ever met. He is very attentive and empathetic, and I can't help but fall for him. He was there for me during anxiety attacks, encouraged me to seek therapy and is a gem of a person. We are 8000 miles apart, age gap too
Lately, I've started a blog and shared it with him; there was a picture of me, and he called me cute. We also happened to discover a shared hobby, chess. He is a great player, and I am just a beginner. He sent me a full-hour video of my previous games, analysis, and ways to improve. He was analyzing my games move by move. This gesture got to me, and now I'm overthinking if there's something more here. I asked why, and he said he was vibing with it and didn't even realize that the video was an hour long.
He even asked if we could play the game every week. I mean, he could just be a person who is passionate about chess.
I have no idea how to deal with this. I don't want to sabotage whatever we have. We also stay continents apart and I'm not sure if long distance can really work.