u/EtherealImperial

1. Hilda
2. Hornet

I first started discovering real gore content during 7th grade. I don’t know why, but I gravitated towards it. I soon realized my favorite type of NSFL video was one which involved criminals, specifically thieves, getting hurt. Whether it be an armed robber or shoplifter, I felt a genuine joy at seeing those types of people get hurt. Any time I got free time at school, I would scroll for a bit, and if I was bored, I’d rewatch those same videos of thieves meeting a grisly end. I have no idea where this intense hatred of thieves comes from. I don’t even despise my sexual assaulter this much. It was only until the 9th grade when I watched a video of an intruder getting stabbed 8 times in a row that I stopped to recognize how irregular this was. I had already experienced highly disturbing content beforehand, such as a video of a burglar getting mauled by 2 dogs. Even though I knew it was wrong, I couldn’t help but still feel pleasure in seeing thieves get hurt. The closest reasoning behind this mindset I can think of is that thieves remind me of my sexual assaulter in a way. They got away with touching me, just like how so many shoplifters get away with theft just because security guards aren’t permitted to detain them. Combined with the fact that theft seems to be rewarded in places like California with a slap on the wrist. That’s the end of my rant, thank you for reading.

Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. After giving it some thought, I realized I was wrong. My goal of having a net worth of at least $25,000,000 was greatly miscalculated. It is way more money than I need to live the lifestyle I want, and I learned what I really wanted was a net salary of $840,000, which is ideal for living a luxurious, but not ridiculous lifestyle. I severely overestimated the costs of potential financial emergencies, such as medical services. Also, I might reconsider my thoughts about AFROTC. I didn’t really want to join the organization specifically, but instead just wanted a place where I could contribute to a cause greater than myself and learn self-discipline. When I go to college, I’ll probably just join a regular nerdy club. Again, I can’t stress enough how appreciative I am of everyone who gave me advice. For now, I wish for the best for anyone reading this!