u/EuphoricCat78

A good beard literally kills me I love that

So I was at a party yesterday and there’s this guy who I knew was gay from a long time ago, but didn’t really talk to him because he’s older and honestly I thought he wouldn’t like me back (as a friend)

We’re both in theater so throughout the semester we started talking progressively more and more, until the show which was when we really started talking as friends.
Then yesterday at the party I was very drunk and I said to him like “hey I think you’re really cool I’m glad I’ve met you” and he was like oh thanks, and he gave me a kiss, but I was in shock so I backed away.

Then I told my best friend about what happened and I was like “oh I fucked up I backed off and I didn’t want to do that and now I lost my chance” and she went to ask him about it, then she called me back with that guy…
And honestly at this point I was lowkey blacking out so I didn’t know how or what happened but when I regained some consciousness he was on top of me and we were FULLY making out like fuuullllyyyy😭 and I was freaking out because I’ve never kissed anyone before, so I did my best to just go with the flow and yeah, top 5 experiences of 2026😭

But now I feel like weird, like I KNOW he didn’t kiss me in like “we should date” mindset because we were both super drunk but I still feel like something idk, I don’t want to see him or talk to him because I’m afraid he’ll just be like “oh yeah no big deal” but it was a big deal for me, and honestly I wouldn’t want to date him but still something feels weird

Oh, and my friend told me a lot of people took pictures and videos of us so😭💔