u/Euphoric_Aerie_3127

Little repost. Was really curious as to whether anyone else her experiences this. My main acting out came via escorts and I’ve been off that for over a year now. A big piece of it is just being too broke (partly from said escorts) and life being expensive, plus a baby. My time is eaten up and I barely get time to watch a bit of TV when the baby’s sleeping.

I find that now I seek other fixes, especially sugar. Feel like I binge on it. Instead of sneaking off during an errand to try to meet up with someone, now I sneak off to buy something and eat it before I get home.

Probably just seeking some kind of dopamine but want to cut that desire. Rarely see friends or go out now.

So my main acting out came via escorts and I’ve been off that for over a year now. A big piece of it is just being too broke (partly from said escorts) and life being expensive, plus a baby. My time is eaten up and I barely get time to watch a bit of TV when the baby’s sleeping.

I find that now I seek other fixes, especially sugar. Feel like I binge on it. Instead of sneaking off during an errand to try to meet up with someone, now I sneak off to buy something and eat it before I get home.

Probably just seeking some kind of dopamine but want to cut that desire. Rarely see friends or go out now.

Got a 6-month-old, I’m not usually a sappy guy. I do everything I can to bond with him and my wife but I usually see myself as one of those guys who gets through the baby stage while enjoying little things.

Just pulled up some old pics of little guy on my phone and got emotional seeing how much he’s grown. I think a piece of it was also seeing the innocent happiness and knowing he’ll have to deal with hardships and tough lessons as he grows old, and that I can’t protect him from ever feeling hurt.

I’ve been able to get more clean the past year. Been to strip clubs four times and blown money there, but a drop in the bucket compared to what I did since I saw my first escort in 2018.

I’ve spent over $10K, and even more if I consider times I was straight up scammed. Been able to move on somewhat but that financial damage lingers boys.

Life is expensive asf, and I could really use an extra $10K right now.