I'm Kashmiri however I feel very disconnected from my roots. I can't speak Kashmiri (and don't know where I can start learning), nor do I look very Kashmiri (irrelevant but a reason for my disconnect) and I barely visit. Since my family relocated to Delhi, I have wanted to embrace my culture, but I simply cannot. Any advice on where to start?
I've always been a sheltered girl growing up, and never stood out too much. But now, as a young adult who's never even interacted with boys my age, I've seemingly become desperate for their approval and attention. I don't put down others for it but it's ruining aspects of how i perceive myself and present myself. I find myself wanting to look more 'attractive'. I hyperfocus on my appearance, especially my body and get too happy if someone even LOOKS at me for more than 10 seconds. But if I get no obvious signs of validation, I feel insecure.