u/EvenLaw157

Anyone else struggle with Aspartame? - the most common artificial sweetener that is in every fun drink 😔. Makes me itch like crazy

In my head I have no sound, no words, no images (anauralia, anendophasia, aphantasia). Furthermore I feel no organisation, no structuring/ categorising/ grouping of brain bits like thoughts/ ideas/ reminders/ plans/ desires. I just exist and function sort of instinctively/ gut feeling-y/ intuitively. The closest I get to accessing brain bits is writing things down instinctively without any prior thought, then I read over it and it kinda gets into my understanding or memory, but not fully and not well. And then, to make matters worse, I have the worst memory on the planet, like a computer with no RAM. So as soon as I kinda understand something and begin trying to understand another thing, I forget completely about that prior thing… it is so frustrating. I am trying to write a dissertation and I am so so cooked, I cannot deal with such a heavy cognitive workload.

(I frequently think of myself as a stupid person or an NPC, and wish I could do more with my brain and get jealous of people with more brain abilities.)

But my question is how should someone like me go about the process of “thought” and “thinking”. Has any multi-sensory aphant figured it out? Or gotten close? Please share your experiences.

I think the closest thing for me is a large whiteboard with a mind map and different colour markers for sections. Also apps like obsidian and heptabase. But these things just don’t feel enough, I still am not “thinking”. Is there any other method out there anyone has discovered? Would love to hear it.