Hello! Do y'all know where I can find leggins similar to the skims ones? Like in this picture: seamless and very slightly sheer or bluish.
I want to avoid that sporty leggings look at all costs, as I want to wear them with heels. I live in Europe and I find Skims quite expensive, so I’m looking for an alternative. Thanks <3
Hello girls, I am actually new here and english is not my first language
I came here with hoping to find someone who has been through something similar to what I have
I hope somebody can take the patience to read me cause maybe is a bit extense, I really appreciate it ❤️🩹
I am a "late bloomer" fem, at 29 years old I had my first girlfriend (masc/stem)
My life before been also tough; I grew up in a completely unstable and broken single-parent family
Living in small cities and rural areas, I’d never been in a position to realise that I was attracted to women, as I was always just trying to survive and never travelled far
with 28 I moved outside my country for try to start a new life after efforts
I arrived knowing that it was about to be hard but with some inocence and attitude, full of life
By then I already knew I was into women, and that in that country I’d have a 99% better chance of finding someone who was my type, so I was excited.
I met the woman who was to become my girlfriend on a dating app
My early days as an immigrant – despite being a European citizen – were not easy; I went through a lot of instability and felt very vulnerable.
She helped me with everything, guided me, took me in at one point, and tried to show me the kinder side of that country, and to make me realise that someone cared about me, that I wasn’t alone as I had thought
She began to go to great lengths and do me favours that were sometimes so excessive they made me uncomfortable; even though it was all meant to be ‘love’, I felt in position of ‘inferiority’ and debt.
Later, I realised that was what it was all about...
Not that long after, (cause we started to date in 1 month) she started to have a strong frustration against me, I could see hatred in her eyes.
It didn’t start as gradually as you might expect; the first row was mild, but things escalated, with her constantly emphasising how useless and clumsy I am.
She started treating me very badly, but then came the apologies, the flowers, or taking me on a date
Every time she treated me badly, the humiliation was worse
At that time, she was my only support in that country, my only source of affection, the one who helped me understand the paperwork, and "my home"
Her personality was very strong and suffocating,
she clearly had anger issues
the ghaslighting was daily, her contempt, depending on the day...
Everybody respected and loved her outdoors but I was alone and "the unstable" for them
My nervous system began to break down badly..
I was shaking a lot, sometimes I hit myself, I’d wake up with palpitations at the sound of keys, I had heavy bleeding between periods, and my body would sometimes shut down due to muscle pain and functional freezing
That made her even angrier and reinforced the idea that I was good for nothing
I feelt in danger
Ik that she’d had legal problems with her two ex-partners; I won’t go into details, but that history perhaps saved me from something physical
She had everything, the money, the house, the language, a supportive network, her family, stability everything, and I had nothing.
It was abuse of power cause all that was perfect to undermine my self-worth
one day she looked at me with fire in her eyes saying that I am using her that I am in her house rent free (she didnt left me pay) and that I dont love her (we was more than one month without sex cause I am not able to have sex with someone that hates me, I didnt feelt sexy, valued and a woman)
I told her we are not girlfriends and that I will pay the grocieries or whatever till I can have a room, I told her clear before that day to avoid the emotions factor, but she tried to came back together without exist, results?:
that day ended up with me on the street with with almost 50kg of laguagges without car, alone and crying on my nerves.
It was my biggest fear, abandonment and end on the streets in a country that is not mine. She knew it
I needed to quite my job, I just secured a non-temporary contract a month before
but I didn't have were to stay
I took a flight back to my hometown, it was horrible, like go back to the point 0 which caused me so much pain as I tried to escape from another situation that was wearing me down
When I came back the trauma bond between us someway tried going, she wanted so hard to recover control over me,
I had clear I didn't want to go back with her
but I also knew that, as she said, without her I had nothing, and that without her help I will do nothing in life
We went to contact 0 and I feelt abstinence syndrome like in the movies, it was so painful, so so painful
Later I saw that she she replaced me, of course not without humiliating me first, not without reminding me that she doesn’t care about me, that I’m nothing without her,
and telling me in great detail about her date with this woman on FaceTime – all without actually saying it was a date (ghasligting), but with enough detail for me to realise it was the date of her life, the best night of her life
My depression was so bad,
but after that I went insane
the abandonment trauma felt like I was dying cause also I was alone, no friends no family nothing
since then I have been in many treatments antidepressants that didnt work, bed rotting for months, I lose more than 15kg, my hair and.... my identity, I dont know who I am anymore, I dont love me and I dont trust me, I cannot love me, I feel so small, I feel so hurted
I dont feel safe in my body, my nervous system still broke, I dont feel beautiful anymore, I don't see myself having a date, I feel like I am good for nothing, I’m way behind in life and I’ve got nothing and no one.
It hurts to be inside myself. It seems like she was true, I had nothing
Meanwhile she is happy and making other woman happy, cause yes she is dating her, and everything seems like a tale, it seems like all the bad things that she did to me, it was because I deserved and the woman that she have deserve the world,
my abuser is happy and succesful
I am dying in life
my abuser is happy and surrounded by love
I am alone with all the trauma
It hurts girls
A year has already gone by.
I feel trapped in this situation and in my homeland; I can’t seem to get ahead and also the chance dont come
I’m being consumed
I’ve been through really a lot in my life.
But the PTSD I’ve developed after this has marked a turning point in my life
something inside me died
I am sorry for all the drama and I really apreciate everyone who has read this far, really
And I am happy to read yall experiencies and tips
Hello girls, I am actually new here and english is not my first language
I came here with hoping to find someone who has been through something similar to what I have
I hope somebody can take the patience to read me cause maybe is a bit extense, I really appreciate it ❤️🩹
I was a "late bloomer" at 29 years old I had my first girlfriend
My life before been also tough; I grew up in a completely unstable and broken single-parent family.
Living in small cities and rural areas, I’d never been in a position to realise that I was attracted to women, as I was always just trying to survive and never travelled far
with 28 I moved outside my country for try to start a new life throught a company of work
I arrived knowing that it was about to be hard but with some inocence
My girlfriend
By then I already knew I was into women, and that in that country I’d have a 99% better chance of finding someone who was my type. I met the woman who was to become my girlfriend on a dating app
My early days as an immigrant – despite being a European citizen – were not easy; I went through a lot of instability and felt very vulnerable. She helped me with everything, guided me, took me in at one point, and tried to show me the kinder side of that country, and to make me realise that someone cared about me, that I wasn’t alone as I had thought.
She began to go to great lengths and do me favours that were sometimes so excessive they made me uncomfortable; even though it was all meant to be ‘love’, I felt indebted and in a position of ‘inferiority’. Later, I realised that was what it was all about...
Not that long after, (cause we started to date in 1 month) she started to harbour a deep grudge against me; I could see hatred in her eyes. It didn’t start as gradually as you might expect; the first row was mild, but things escalated, with her constantly emphasising how useless and clumsy I am.
She started treating me very badly, but then came the apologies, the flowers, or taking me on a date
Every time she treated me badly, the humiliation was worse
At that time, she was my only support in that country, my only source of affection, the one who helped me understand the paperwork, and "my home"
Her personality was very strong and suffocating; she started to play mind games with me on numerous occasions, the ghaslighting was daily, her contempt, depending on the day...
My nervous system began to break down badly; I was shaking a lot, I’d wake up with palpitations at the sound of keys, I had heavy bleeding between periods, and my body would sometimes shut down due to muscle pain and functional freezing
The latter made her even angrier and reinforced the idea that I was good for nothing
I feelt in danger
She herself confessed to me, with her smooth talk, that she’d had legal problems with her two ex-partners; I won’t go into details, but that history perhaps saved me from something physical
She had everything, the money, the house, the language, a supportive network, her family, stability everything, and I had nothing. It was abuse of power cause all that was perfect to undermine my self-worth
one day I just opened my eyes in my free day and she looked at me with fire in her eyes saying that I am using her that I am in her house rent free (she didnt left me pay) and that I dont love her (we was more than one month without sex cause I am not able to have sex with someone that hates me, I didnt feelt sexy, valued and a woman)
I told her we are not girlfriends and that I will pay the grocieries or whatever till I can have a room, I told her clear befora that day to avoid the emotions factor.
Anyway, that day ended up with me on the street with with almost 50kg of laguagges without car, alone and crying on my nerves.
It was my biggest fear, abandonment and end on the streets in a country that is not mine. She knew it
I needed to quite my job, I just secured a non-temporary contract a month before
but I didn't have were to stay
I took a flight back to my hometown, it was horrible, like go back to the point 0 which caused me so much pain as I tried to escape from another situation that was wearing me down
When I came back the trauma bond between us someway tried going, she wanted so hard to recover control over me,
I had clear I didn't want to go back with her
but I also knew that, as she said, without her I had nothing, and that without her help I will do nothing in life
We went to contact 0 and I feelt abstinence syndrome like in the movies, it was so painful, so so painful
Later I saw that she she replaced me, of course not without humiliating me first, not without reminding me that she doesn’t care about me, that I’m nothing without her,
and telling me in great detail about her date with this woman on FaceTime – all without actually saying it was a date (ghasligting), but with enough detail for me to realise it was the date of her life, the best night of her life
My depression was so bad,
but after that I went insane
the abandonment trauma felt like I was dying cause also I was alone, no friends no family nothing
since then I have been in many treatments antidepressants that didnt work, bed rotting for months, I lose more than 15kg, my hair and.... my identity, I dont know who I am anymore, I dont love me and I dont trust me, I cannot love me, I feel so small, I feel so hurted, I have no one.
I dont feel safe in my body, my nervous system still broke, I dont feel beautiful anymore, I don't see myself having a date, I’m good for nothing, I’m way behind in life and I’ve got nothing and no one. It hurts to be inside myself. I’ve thought about leaving this world because everything is pain
It seems like she was true, I had nothing
Meanwhile she is happy and making other woman happy, cause yes she is dating her, and everything seems like a tale, it seems like all the bad things that she did to me, it was because I deserved and the woman that she have deserve the world,
my abuser is happy and succesful
I am dying
she is happy
I am dying
It hurts girls
A year has already gone by.
I feel trapped in this situation and in my homeland; I can’t seem to get ahead and also the chance dont come
I’m being consumed
I’ve been through really a lot in my life.
But the PTSD I’ve developed after this has marked a turning point in my life
something inside me died
I am sorry for all the drama and I really apreciate everyone who has read this far, really
And I am happy to read yall experiencies and tips