u/Evening-Horror8686

I wonder what he is doing? Why i don’t see him no more? You just disappear, things got so messed up.. you prolly think i hate you, i should right? But i don’t. I haven’t lost my boyfriend only i have lost my best friend. I know what you did to me was so wrong, but i also acknowledge that my behavior towards you wasn’t right as well, i didn’t treat you the way you deserved! That’s what you said when you broke up with me, i agree with you!! Its too late now i know. I hope you’re doing good tho? I hope your health is good too! Ahhh it did hurt alot, i didn’t realize that because i was so mad at you. Still mad at you, but i remember our sweet and good moments! And that shit hurts bruh! I wonder if you miss me like this too or you don’t feel any regret leaving me.. coz yk you’re SO PRACTICAL and MATURE lol, but j…. I miss you alot bruh, i wish we could at least stay friends but things got so bitter and messed up THANKS TO YOU :) The only right thing is never to talk to each other again :/ i also wonder if you actually loved me or not i wonder if you believe i really loved you ! Idk i am just hurt but i have faith in God, he will definitely help me :)

I saw my ex in the hallway, he looked at me as i was behind him (kinda far), he looked TWO times.. and my whole body started trembling and i was having cold sweats, i thought i was doing good and started healing but wtf just happened to me today? All those memories started kicking in, how could he do that to me just leave me like that? WHY did he betray me? I LOVED HIM WITH ALL MY HEART….. We were doing so good… i’m sorry im just venting because it hurts so bad, i don’t know if i am ever gonna find love again and if i will be able to love someone the way i loved him!!! I just can’t-

Also, HOW DO PEOPLE MOVE ON?

How could you just end things like that, like nothing ever meant to you anything, How could you betray me like that how could you break my trust. You were the first person i ever loved and trusted that much. Don’t you have a heart? I was with you when you were at your lowest, even your friends turned their back on you. I did everything i could to make this work, i was ready to take a stand for you in future. You betrayed the person who loved you the most, you never believed i really did love you! Now how will i ever trust a man? How will i ever be able to love someone the way i loved you? I feel embarrassed of myself that i trusted you. What about those efforts you put in this relationship? I still can’t believe you did it! You ruined everything! Now we can never be the same, i hope i never ever get to see your face again, you broke me. You broke my heart. Didn’t your heart break seeing me crying and trembling? Are you even a human? I will never forgive you NEVER

Just come to me, forget everything, apologize to me. Let me hug you and cry in your arms. I will forgive you (like i always do) let’s get married by the end of this year like we wanted to..let’s forget about the past.. THIS IS ALL MY INNER THOUGHTS THAT I CANT SHARE WITH ANYONE I know you hurt me alot you broke my trust, i wish things weren’t so messed up between us, WHY did you ruin all of it, did it mean nothing to you? Did you ever believe i loved you? You called it MANIPULATION and it was hurtful than the whole breakup, you snitched on me, people in love don’t hurt their partner intentionally! Lol i am just rambling coz i am hurt :)

I was going through the hallway wishing i don’t see you, coz i didn’t wanna have another panic attack, last time you saw me crying and trembling but you didn’t care, how will i ever trust w man again? I trusted you with all my heart! You were my best friend too! You ruined everything, even if we want we can NEVER go back, i loved you.. TAKE CARE NEXT MONTH IS IMPORTANT FOR YOU ( i remember your doctor’s appointment ) best of luck! And yeah don’t be scared or nervous.. everything’s gonna be alright ❤️

I hope you finally understood that you hurt me, broke my trust, you WRONGED me, you snitched on me. How could you do this to me? Didn’t it break your heart seeing me crying and trembling?? You threatened me? I mean, WHY? You were my only safe space, i trusted you with all my heart? How could you do this to me?? I wonder if you have a heart? Just know, i NEVER tried to hurt you, i was there for you when you were at your lowest.. i did whatever i could for you.. but how can you betray someone you said you LOVED? That’s not love.. All i want is a sincere apology, i didn’t deserve that at all.. i TRUSTED you with all my heart, how will i ever be able to trust a man again? I LOVED YOU! And you, You snitched on ME? You knew exactly what you were doing but enough is enough, i’m so done with you. YOU ARE A F MANIPULATOR! (Not me) funny how i keep writing your name after every sentence here….. But, how could you do this to the girl who loved you? My soft side was only for you….. I hope you come to your senses! I don’t wanna be with you anymore! I’m closing the doors on you forever, i have kept forgiving you in the past so many times but bruh I’M SO DONE ( YOU, GET THERAPY BTW )

To J…

How could you just end things like that, like nothing ever meant to you anything, How could you betray me like that how could you break my trust. You were the first person i ever loved and trusted that much. Don’t you have a heart? I was with you when you were at your lowest, even your friends turned their back on you. I did everything i could to make this work, i was ready to take a stand for you in future. You betrayed the person who loved you the most, you never believed i really did love you! Now how will i ever trust a man? How will i ever be able to love someone the way i loved you? I feel embarrassed of myself that i trusted you. What about those efforts you put in this relationship? I still can’t believe you did it! You ruined everything! Now we can never be the same, i hope i never ever get to see your face again, you broke me. You broke my heart. Didn’t your heart break seeing me crying and trembling? Are you even a human? I will never forgive you NEVER