u/EvilBisexualElmo

Hi!! Yeah idk, I'm just bored.

From NY, I work in Healthcare, Hispanic/Latina, Bi, aaaand I like music, some shows I currently watch like Overcompensating, Heated Rivalry, I Love LA, Hacks. I do like anime but I would be lying if I said I watched it often but a few I like would be: Golden Kamuy, Gintama, Bakemonogatari series, FLCL, and a few others.

I love music so I'm always down to swap songs and the like.

Hi, found this subreddit sporadically because I've been dealing with an issue and I can't pin it down.

I currently share a space with someone and I've realized I can't really hear my own thoughts around them. I can't concentrate around them. I can't do inner work or shadow work around them. I can't retain energy around them.

I feel depleted with them all the time and I have been for a while. I provide this person a consistent siphoning of energy I guess but I say 'I guess' only because they never seem to have any energy themselves. They live in a very continuous anxiety state even at rest. So, I absorb this very easily.

I can't even manifest without feeling like their energy is crossing bounds with mine, and kind of disrupting my thoughts.

I don't know what to do. I'm very stuck. Anyway, thanks for reading if you do.

At work yesterday I was asked to do something I have no capability of. I told them I couldn't verify medication for a patient on our EMR but I can ask them their medications in the room, however the doctor will see the patient in their office anyway and has no choice but to go over medications because HE has the ability to verify/discontinue medications on his end. I do not because that is not an ability I have with my title. So the whole day everyone was mad at me even though I called my manager and asked her about this, she defended me completely. It is not something I can do within my scope of practice that the company highlights for those in my role. I still received animosity.

Last patient of the day was a procedure (rubber band ligation) and she was seen in office last week. I didn't review her meds verbally in the room, because she came exactly on time and I wanted her to be in and out, and the provider to be in and out. Also, it makes no sense to go over meds again if the provider has to verify them on his end anyway.

The PA comes up to me and negs me about it over and over. Like she actively corners me about it. At the point, I'm shaking and confused. I felt unsafe. It was a very odd reaction.

Background story: This is a NEW colorectal surgery practice with a Colorectal Surgeon who is NEW to the system, coming from a 'competitor' system. Our system does not have EPIC, which he and his Surgical PA are used to. It frustrates them a lot, however I noticed that the two of them (man and woman) are just very aggressive and entitled. They both beatdown on me. Which is pretty sad because they make more than me and living comfortable lives more than I do. I make 22 an hour part time and I can't afford to live on my own anymore.

We only see patients Mon-Wed and usually it's 4-5 patients those days and sometimes less. It is not a busy practice at all. Front Desk and I spend most of our time obtaining medical records at a high demand and it is difficult because the surgeon will demand older records that, since we do not have EPIC, is harder to obtain from other institutions. We will even cancel patients if we cannot obtain records , especially if they say they have no idea where they had XYZ procedures done.

The atmosphere though is so weird. Surgeon is extremely unappreciative and oddly aggressive. His PA follows suit by attaching herself to his emotional state and puts out his frustrations onto me.

I'm thinking about transferring at this point because it's getting weird.