u/Exact-Lawfulness-314

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I don't care about how it'll affect sex or anything. I either want this or find a way to modify the procedure. I just want extreme phimosis and never see it retract again even when hard. Banned from foreskin restoration, so I can't ask them.

U.S. surgeons preferred.

Remove if this violates the rules and state which one I violated, please.

WARNING THIS CONTAINS SOME PHOTOS FROM THE SURGERY SO IF YOUR SQUEAMISH DON'T OPEN.

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Yes, fgm is just as bad as mgm, but the majority of the world protects women from this. Every country on earth does not care for the right of men to not be sexually abused by this torture method. Until mgm is seen equally as horrible as fgm and banned for everyone with no exemptions, I don't care about it in the slightest about fgm or if it becomes legalised.

At least Iceland tried to become civilised and ban it, but it was threatened by jews and muslims because of there 'rights' to abuse children.

Why the fuck did I have to be born in this savage fucking country. I'll never be a real person because of the subhuman thing that raped me. I won't have a real looking body, even with restoration surgical or not. Somedays, i just want it cut off, so i won't have to be in this raped body. Fuck these savage people. I hate america. Why couldn't I have been born in Europe like Germany, where most men aren't mutilated. I'll never be able to find love because I refuse to date men who are mutilated, especially because my state has a 90% mutilation rate and the preferences I have. I don't find myself living past 30 because this. Fuck it all, damn this shithole and any thing that advocates for this rape procedure. It has ruined my life, and I will never be a real person nor have a real body because of it.

I hate this filthy rapist state. The whole country is rotten to the core, especially the medical and lawyer industries. The 'medical' industry profits off of your suffering and lies to you thinking it's ok to be mutilated when it's not. Lawyers reject your claims and state how you won't be able to sue the rapists who did this to you and force you to suffer. I can't keep living like this, and having the thing that did this to me, go free. I want them to suffer. Why is that too much to ask? I want that thing to cry to on their knees, saying they're sorry while I can get every last ounce of money they own and ruin their pathetic life. I hate my life, and I can never have a normal body or life because of that monster who raped me as an infant. No surgery or restoration can make it look real enough to me. I and many others are forced to suffer for the rest of our lives because of the sexual abusers in the u.s 'medical' industry. I can't never be normal, and the chance to be normal is gone forever.

I just want to punch a wall until my bones break and cry.

You don't even get anything from a real dick back. No nerves, no feeling except if you get lucky and deketerize the head of it. None of the restored dicks I've seen looks real, it doesn't have a tight taper nor thinness to it. And it takes years to even remotely look real. I'd rather cut it off than it be imperfect. I could have had owned my body but instead I was branded like a slave and I can't even get lawyers to fucking acknowledged I was raped. Fuck this state with its 90% mutilation rate. It makes it impossible to find an intact guy since I refuse to date mutilated guys. I won't forgive my parents for letting me be sexual assault no matter how much they say they're sorry. I don't even know why I'm doing restoration if all itll give me is a fake dick. Is there any way through surgical means to have a real looking dick? If not, how could I get it removed by medical means?

I despise this filthy godamn body. I could have been happy in my life. I feel as if I've been marked as a slave forever to have this raped and inferior body for the rest of this shit life. I'd rather have died when I was born or have it all removed than be this abomination. Fuck Ohio and fuck the animals who think this is ok. Despite trying to restore, I know I can never have the look of a real intect person. I know its hypocritical but i could never daye a mutilated guy because I will forever see a 'cut' dick as broken. My life fucked over before I could even walk. If he'll is real, I want the monsters who did this to me to suffer there. Sometimes, I just cyrl up, then sob and scream and then laugh maniacally from all the mental and physical pain this thing forces me.

I hate this 'thing'. I'm tired every single moment I live that it is broken. Bottom surgery, at least, will make the rememberence go away even if I have to take out thousands in loans and in debt for the rest of my life at just 18. It won't matter anyway since my life is already fucked over. I might consider getting a surgical restoration technique that was used in India despite it not making it a real body part. If it's not to my liking, I might try to get a nullectomy and lie about body dysmorphia or a vaginoplasty but I probably would regret that since I find most pussy's disgusting. I'd rather just have a hole that I can still use the bathroom and pleasure myself or be pleasured by others with than a mutilated reminder that my parents failed me. I don't care if it'll cause even more problems down there since it's already ruined and not my body since the objects that did this knife raped me. I'd rather have no sexual parts than a broken,ugly, and inferior part.

I feel as if my entire life has been for nothing. 18 years ago, the first thing I felt as I was born was sexual abuse by a knife. I've been tainted ever since by it. Evertime I have to look at it. I'm reminded of how lesser I am as a human. Every time I hear or see how someone is intact, it makes me want to die and reminds me how I could have a happy life not being mutilated if my country and parents weren't such fucking idiots. I could have had a happy life, I feel any major events in my life will mean nothing and how the only thing in my life that matters is if looking like an actual human. I don't feel like I'll get what I want in life, and it'll all be useless. I've done restoration for some months to 1 year but always feel discouraged at how unrealistic a 'restored' dick looks compared to an intact one. Weather by surgery or not. It doesn't have a realistic taper, thin body, or intact looking frenulum. I don't even want to date in my state because 90% of men are mutilated, I refuse to date a mutilated guy. I hate this body and life knowing I can never be intact and normal like the rest of men who aren't mutilated freaks like me and others who were mutilated. I hate knowing society thinks it's OK and justified to sexually abuse men and children while saying how horrible it is if women get cut.

'The Sadness Will Last Forever' - Van Gogh