u/Exact-Sale9990

I've never been in a relationship but in the last few months I've been thinking that I'd like to be in one.

It's just that whenever a guy shows the tiny bit of interest in me I autosabotage myself by avoiding him or acting cold out of nowhere. I hate it honestly.

It's even worse if I'm interested in someone. I can NEVER make the first move or show that I like him in any way.

It's almost like there's something blocking me or idk what. I didn't have any bad experiences with guys in the past (no experience at all actually) so it's not about some type of trauma.

I don't like being uncomfortable. My brain tells me something like "why the hell would you intentionally make yourself vulnerable??" and I can't seem to get past this.

Everyone around me is either getting a boyfriend or hooking up with someone. There's definetely something wrong with me.

TL;DR afraid of being vulnerable and falling in love

I'm 21F and yesterday I got pissed at my brother (he's 20) because he didn't wash HIS dishes after he finished eating.

We both go to uni and we live with our parents. My brother came home late so I left the food on the table and washed all the other dishes.

To me it seemed obvious that he had to wash his own dishes after eating but I guess it wasn't?? I had to tell him and only then he did it but he didn't scrub enough and they still felt oily.

How can't he do a basic thing like this?? I got so annoyed that I told that I'm not gonna cook for him anymore if hes going to be this lazy but my dad said we were acting like children and he's not going to cook for me anymore either when I come home late.

It's so annoying. And it's not the first time it's happened. I literally have to tell my brother anything. He doesn't flush the toilet, he doesn't clean the sink, he doesn't remember to put dirty clothes in the basket and the list goes on.

My mom says he's just forgetful and puts up with it and honestly it makes me even more pissed.