u/Excellent_Cut_2898

I don’t really know how to articulate this well but I’ll try my best, I am an ugly individual and I struggle with adhd, for most of my life I have felt extremely unhappy with who I am and myself in general, I have struggled with depression for as long as I can remember and I can recall many times attributing my sadness directly to my appearance and my inability to speak to women, it is incredibly demoralizing watching your normal peers get girlfriends and live normal lives while your left alone and with an immense self hatred, I’ve been mocked for my looks countless times and women are repulsed by me for the most part, I recall this one time a girl who disliked me for no apparent reason looked at me walk past her laughed at me with her friends and pretended to throw up at my mere appearance, all of this has collimated with me hating myself, in the past few years I had developed body dysmorphia and to a more extreme extent anorexia (over it now ofc) and I simply just dislike myself, mainly bcuz of my appearance , I don’t think my appearance would have bothered me that much if it just ment being ugly but it’s gotten to the point where I believe I am/have missed out on important aspects of life because I am ugly, I would regard myself as having an interesting set of interests and being well read but I feel as if no one would know that scant for a few friends because for the most part people are repulsed by my appearance or my inability to communicate, I guess what I’m looking for is the answer to the question: does it get better? Because I don’t feel it will because frankly it hasn’t, I’ve hated myself and have made myself into a recluse because of appearance and my treatment as a result of my appearance so how can I cope with it all how can I move past it all? How am I able to come to terms with it all and accept life as an ugly person?

Doing a frenzy run and don’t wanna wait until mountain tops for it so if anyone wants to trade please and thank you! ❤️