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I’ve been using purple cabbage leaves to replace higher calorie options and have found it extremely satisfying and practical . For example I had a pulled pork bbq sandwich with all the fixings… swapped the bun out with the cabbage leaf and ate it kinda taco style. Had regular tacos… swapped out the tortilla with cabbage leaf. The thing I’m loving is the DURABILITY the cabbage leaf has which is often lacking when doing the typical “lettuce wrap”. Maybe I’m late to the party on this one but just thought I’d share.

Last night I was looking at photos from an outing we had with our toddler son. There was a photo of my son and I was in the distance in the far corner of the frame (I was wearing shorts). My legs looked enormous and disgusting.

Shocked, I showed my husband the photo and asked if that’s what I really looked like. He said no not at all… and that the photo is distorted because I’m so near the edge of the frame. I was relieved to hear that. I told him that I’ve seen lots of pictures of myself like this (pictures taken by others) and it drives me crazy and that’s why I hate my body and I’m always trying to lose weight. He says, “well you shouldn’t have eaten that whole cookie then”.

Hearing him say that made my heart drop and tears well up. I was angry, devastated, and he had no clue. I sat there a moment steaming and finally muttered, “don’t ever say anything about what I eat again”. I didn’t speak the rest of the night and went to bed early.

He has no idea how much his comment hurt me. What kills me is he knows I have a history with severe restriction and being underweight and binge eating. I can’t bring myself to eat anything and haven’t eaten today. Any time I think of having something… his comment blares in my mind and I’m too disgusted with myself to eat. Every time I consider eating I cry. I hate myself so much.

I’m considered a healthy bmi with my weight putting me slightly on the low end of the healthy range. Family and friends always tell me how small and thin I am but I know they’re wrong