u/Expensive-Job1445

Two years ago I made my first post on this subreddit when I was 500 pounds and at rock bottom. One year ago I made an update telling everyone that I had lost about 150 pounds reaching 350. I wasn’t going to make a post this year because I don’t really have many positives unfortunately but I need help. This time it’s more mentally. I am sad to say that I haven’t really lost much weight since last year. I haven’t gained thankfully. As for being hopeful in getting a girlfriend. We have also not succeeded on that goal. I met somebody two years ago and we really got close last year. We would go out almost daily and we had the greatest of times. She unfortunately ended up telling me a month ago that she has no feelings at all for me. I thought if I sacrificed everything and loved her harder it would work. I ended up being depressed over that and it made me realize how much I betrayed myself and my original goal. I am glad to say that I am back on track and I hope to give you guys a way better update next year. I just feel so empty this time. I feel like I’m going to crash out in the long run. I have no motivation to get better but I need to move forward.

I’ve learned in the toughest way possible that you can’t make somebody love you by loving them harder. I tried my absolute best with this girl. When I met her I wasn’t looking for anything and was on a mission to better myself. I’ve been financially unstable for most of my adult life and I wanted to change that. I met her through a friend and at first it was nothing it was just a random friendship. Over the past 3 years we’ve gotten so much closer. Year one was one of the heartbreaks. From the moment we got close we got a lot of couple allegations and we would always deny it. We went to a concert and she told me that she was concerned about all the comments that were made that she wanted to make it clear that we were just friends. At the time I was like damn. I thought there was something there. But I didn’t give myself for defeated. I thought to myself the closer I got to her, the more I learned about her, the more I did for her, the more I sacrificed for her, the more time I reserved for her, the more I hyped her up it would eventually lead to her loving me. I am here to say that is unfortunately not true! I spent the last 3 years beyond the most loyal dog ever and it got me no where. Year 3 it happened twice. One time while we were out, the next time through text. The one through text was the one that really stung. She sounded so annoyed of the thought of thinking anybody thinking we ever had a future. I sacrificed the last three years for her and that’s all she wants to tell me. She never once thanked me for everything I did and it’s not that I expected it I would just think that’s something a normal person would do. I’m being very vague about the whole situation but just know I sacrificed everything. My credit score is ruined and I am like $4,000 in debt haha. I recently got back on my feet with a salary job so hopefully we can clear that debt up in the next couple of months, get back on my feet and never allow myself to be that person again. Unrequited love is something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I am empty. I am nothing. But I move forward. Because what else can I do.