Binge Eating and running
(18F, 63kg, 162cm) training for a half marathon in october and i‘m terrified that my binging will lead to me not being able to compete.
For context i run 4 times a week and strenght train 1-2 days a week. I‘ve been struggling with binge eating since i was 12 years old.
My binges are usually due to emotional stress and depression.
Ever since my binge eating started i‘ve lost and gained a lot of weight over and over again (10-20kg)
A year ago i went into a 5 month long treatment for BED/restricion, during that time ive felt my relationship with food became a lot better. My binges still happened but they were much smaller and less frequent (before treatment almost everyday during treatment about once a month)
After the treatment i was doing pretty good for about a month or two, then the binges started happening more often.
About 3 months ago I started running again and its helped me so much with my mental health and body image.
Sadly my binges are frequenting much more, i have about two big binges a week. I have gained about 2kg in the last month and am really scared of it continuing like it always did in the past. I hate how i still havent recovered even after going to treatment and after years of telling myself i will never binge again.
I dont restrict at all anymore, i dont have any food rules and i eat normally even after a day of binging.
I dont know what to do anymore. I’m really scared i will ruin this whole running thing with my binging…..
Does anyone have any experience with running and binging or just any advice ?