I don’t even know what I really wanna say it’s just been going on since last August and I’m so damn tired, I’ve been binging and restricting from August-April Then since May I’m trying to lose weight the healthy way but I keep binging multiple times a week and this week has been especially bad, and I ruined pretty much all the progress I’ve seen during the past month. I genuinely don’t know what to do man
(18F, 63kg, 162cm) training for a half marathon in october and i‘m terrified that my binging will lead to me not being able to compete.
For context i run 4 times a week and strenght train 1-2 days a week. I‘ve been struggling with binge eating since i was 12 years old.
My binges are usually due to emotional stress and depression.
Ever since my binge eating started i‘ve lost and gained a lot of weight over and over again (10-20kg)
A year ago i went into a 5 month long treatment for BED/restricion, during that time ive felt my relationship with food became a lot better. My binges still happened but they were much smaller and less frequent (before treatment almost everyday during treatment about once a month)
After the treatment i was doing pretty good for about a month or two, then the binges started happening more often.
About 3 months ago I started running again and its helped me so much with my mental health and body image.
Sadly my binges are frequenting much more, i have about two big binges a week. I have gained about 2kg in the last month and am really scared of it continuing like it always did in the past. I hate how i still havent recovered even after going to treatment and after years of telling myself i will never binge again.
I dont restrict at all anymore, i dont have any food rules and i eat normally even after a day of binging.
I dont know what to do anymore. I’m really scared i will ruin this whole running thing with my binging…..
Does anyone have any experience with running and binging or just any advice ?
My biggest problem is that I always end up eating too much because I’m constantly obsessed with food and I feel like I have no self-control. It mostly happens when I’m bored. Without food, I feel empty.
Does anyone else feel this way? How did you manage to stop using food to fill that emptiness or boredom?
Hello lovely people. I’m an eating disorder therapist in New Zealand, specialising in binge eating as well as GLP1 psychological support. I just really want to get the message out there that it may feel like you’re addicted to some food, but there are highly effective evidence-based treatments that support you to 100% recover from binge eating and the answer is not avoiding these foods. The main “cause” of binge eating is an underlying fear of weight gain/poor body image, causing fear-based thinking about eating and plans to restrict food, which triggers a deprivation status in the brain, leading to obsessions and urges to eat these foods. There can often be compounding issues with neurodiversity, trauma or other things that make eating certain foods particularly appealing due to their soothing impact on the brain.
The treatment is very specialised though so it’s not just therapy/talking about your feelings. They can help heal your relationship with food and your body. You also don’t have to reach a clinical diagnosis level to deserve help.
Best of luck to you! ☺️
I eat regularly and full meal every day
High protein and i don’t cut any types of food
When i crave something i eat it
But in weekends i noticed i eat out of boredom or habit
I just put a watch and start eating but this is sick cause i want yo stop doing this and i don’t know how
I go out often these days cause i know if i stay at hoke i’m gonna binge
But this is not a solution to a lifetime
And i really need help
How can i sit at home peacefully without doing a bad habit that i’m used to like binging on food ?
I struggle with binge eating whenever I am stressed. I tried going on walks, avoiding food triggers, calling someone before a binge urge, eating satisfying meals throughout the day, but somehow, whenever I’m stressed, my brain just shuts off, forgets about everything, and only thinks about food. It’s frustrating at this point especially because I have body image issues and go a lot to the gym, and I feel like I’m wasting my time if all I do is eat crap and then work out, because my progress gets diminished.
I seriously consider smoking (I’m a non smoker) because I need a relief. I need something to help me clear my head, and currently, it’s food, and I want to change that, even if it means replacing it with another addiction.
So I (17f) have been struggling with various eating disorders since I was about 11 or 12, it's changed in symptoms and different specific habits but as of recent it's gotten worse than ever before. Since about the past year or two- it's gone from binging occasionally, restricting, and such habits - to full blown bulimia, this consists of extreme, thousands of calorie binges multiple times a day followed by purging(which is at the point my body does it pretty much automatically without even needing fingers to trigger my gag reflex) to the point of yellow, acidic bile every time. The purging has become so ingrained in my bodies daily routine that its gotten to the point I don't digest anything anymore, even if I were to be delayed or prevented for hours, my body simply doesn't digest like it used to, sometimes I can wait 5+ hours and still bring up things from then completely. In short- its gotten serious quick, I've gone from 170+ pounds to around100-105 in a year, and on top of that I've always been on the bigger side, so this weight is pretty much totally abnormal for me. My hair has begun to fall out, I've fainted on staircases hitting my head, get constant debilitating numbness and cramps throughout my body regularly, and have virtually no energy to do anything anymore. Im not ready to die yet, and though my bmi (around low 17/high 16s) is not extremely dangerously low, I can tell my body is shutting down, and that if I continue - I might actually die, but I can't stop. I have nothing I look forward to outside my binges and recovery feels impossible, nor do I feel "sick" enough to deserve it. I guess I just need support and advice, or to at least hear I'm not the only one feeling this way or going through this.
I am so unbelievably lost, ashamed, and hopeless. My mind was once consumed by each nutritional detail of what I ate, and evolved to focus on each meal looking/tasting perfect. My severe orthorexia (weighing/tracking food for hours, malnourished, and underweight), turned into an extreme binge eating disorder. I went from still being slightly underweight, to having a noticeably healthier appearance, to the heaviest i’ve ever been (beyond what’s needed), just in the past few months. I am binging nearly every day, then numbing it by BARELY sleeping, desperately reaching out to anyone I can, and falling back into doomscrolling. I’m experiencing crying spells, outbursts, and even destructive behavior. I spent so long tightly would in compulsions that I have no impulse control left. I feel so uncomfortable and entirely disconnected from my body, nothing fits, and I can’t even bring myself to leave the house. My only identity was the body I built working out and it’s just gone. I’m too depressed to do anything but eat myself into sickness, scroll, and fantasize about another life. I feel like no matter what, my OCD will always control me, and the food noise will never stop. I’ve started therapy, and tried to pray, but I can’t take this awful coping mechanism for another day! PLEASE HELP!!ANYTHING!!