Let's Talk because She and I can't...
Big picture. We dated for a couple of years before getting married. I was diagnosed with Stage 4 PMBL, a type of aggressive lymphoma.. By the Grace of God and the beautiful people at MSK - we made it through that. 6 rounds of chemo that were 5 days long each cycle, I traveled with a chemo bag for 30 days in total. 6 more rounds of chemo and immunotherapy. 20 rounds of radiation. High dose of chemo and autologous stem cell transplant for the finish line. Needless to say, I'm thankful for my health, my faith in God and my life. I'm also forever indebted to those who stuck with me through this phase of my life, including my wife.
She desperately wants a baby now, but my swimmers are non existent due to the treatments. 5 rounds of IVF later and in the midst of an IUI as we speak. This Mother's Day has been a nightmare. She decided we're not going to her Mother's house, exaggerated her dog being sick and just sulks in misery with her dog. Her way of coping with things is not something I can understand. I'm learning that even though I'm an empathetic person, I'm not good at showing empathy. I want to fix problems and fix mindsets, it's not helping.
I have so much resentment over the way she treats me while she's navigating an admittedly very tough phase of both of our lives, coupled with the fact that I just get pushed away when I try to talk or connect... I literally don't know what to do anymore.
Any guidance or wisdom on the topic would be helpful.