u/Expiredcabinets

I'm supposed to be a supervisor this year. It's early in the season all we've been doing is orientation and getting the pool ready, but I really need to request some days off THIS week. And I know it's unprofessional, but what can I do?
Also haven't seen him in person for a week cause we're waiting on my background check.
I never thought it mattered cause like, you don't have to answer your texts if you don't want to, like I never cared when people would text me at 2-3am.
But I gotta remember these are grown men and not just kids my age 😭

Like I find it so off putting and even more of a reason to stay a virgin. I feel like a lot of the posts on here (not all, but what I've seen) talk about sex with women as a commodity that's owed to them, and then they don't even think about the woman on the other side of that?
Like, that coupled with how guys act irl where I'm from and maybe it's just safer to be single 😭.
I'm financially stable, getting an education, and can curl up watching movies on girls night and going shopping. This life ain't half bad if I don't have to risk A) only being used for my body and B) some sort of violence and boundary crossing because GOLLY what happens in my town is kinda gross, but also pretty standard.

Maybe my papi was right, stay away from men, don't date till I'm 25 and my frontal lobe is developed 🙂‍↕️

Or I could just be an old cat lady and live in a group home with all my friends. Who knows. We can be like those 7 women in Guangzhou China. This ain't a half bad idea....

I quit my sports team a couple days before sectionals and I still feel really guilty about it, but I was dealing with eating issues and that ramped up my anxiety, plus my body wasn't performing as well because I wasn't eating and so I was so scared of just not getting a PR and letting people down I quit.
That on top of the team talking about me behind my back when I told them I'd rather them just come up and ask me questions.
I just feel like I let down my coaches more than anything. I wanted to give them a note explaining why I did this, as well as thanking them for being my coaches the last 4 years and how they genuinely helped me out, but I don't know if that's going to get me in trouble because of like mandatory reporting?
But again, I'm 18, a legal adult, and I'm gonna mention that my parents now know and that I'm already taking steps to be better and all of that- so is it going to get me in trouble?
And they also talked about all the potentional I had too so I feel extra guilty.
I just wanna drop off the notes, ask them to sign my yearbook and then never see them again

I saw someone recommend it, but the moment I opened that app it was all tech stuff and I was sooooo confused

My mom is going to kill me. But I've tried everything. I'm already applying to my summer job that gives me 40+hrs/week, I've applied to scholarships, but none of them got back to me (I probably messed something up on my end), I've only saved up a couple thousand, and my parents are very adamant that they don't want to help out.

I'm so screwed. And this feels like an easy way to make cash? I did it a little before. Just dabbled and then stopped because I told myself I'm not gonna do anything like that unless I NEEDED it, and totaling up the costs of everything made my stomach drop.

I literally am trying every loophole I'm only going to do light stuff, like bikini pics so legally its not pornography. I'm probably gonna sell used undergarments. I don't know, I feel like that makes a lot of people money?

And it's not fair because I did pretty decent in high school. 3.8gpa, bilingual, state officer in a club. Whatever. While my total is coming out to be maybe 130k for an associates? And then I have to get a bachelors after which I don't even know the cost of that.

Meanwhile my brother is paying 12k for all four years cause he's an athlete (a very good one though), after failing almost every class we had together. But I'm actually so proud of him!

And now I have to resort to selling stuff, and hopefully only that stuff. And it's not right, I know what that kind of work does.

On top of it all I'm waiting for marriage. And this defeats the whole purpose of that. And obviously I don't expect my partner to end up being a virgin or something while this is what I chose to do, it's hypocritical.

Im just very confused how I ended up this way.