u/Extension-Row-3082

Like I’ve been *involuntarily* off of my meds for like 6 months and it’s crazy how fast the happiness or whatever you may call it that came with it went away. Like while I was actively on it, it felt like it wasn’t working at all then I ran out and never got anymore and it’s like damn I really feel numb right now and I have no friends when in February I was semi normal. Anyways I’m yapping and this probably doesn’t make sense because I’m a little restless but yeah.

I actually don’t think I’ll ever be clean forever because I always fall back into bad habits like I relapsed in my ed because I was sick and throwing up and i visibly looked lighter afterwards so one thing led to another and I’ve been…indulging in these habits and because I did that I also ended up cutting albeit it wasn’t anything crazy or deep like I’ve done in the past it still happened and now here we are 👍

Send me a message if you want to be in it and I’ll send you the sub!! I won’t be accepting anyone who hasn’t interacted with my sub or other sh/ed subs just because I have no way of confirming that that person isn’t joining in an attempt to get it banned the rules are pretty much the same I’m just more relaxed about censorship and things of that nature

Like before she knew I used to sh and I’ve been trying to get clean she respected that I didn’t want to see fresh cuts and how I’m okay as long as they’re bandaged but now that she knows I’m clean and doing a little bit better she’ll randomly come up to me and be like “I need to show you something but don’t tell our foster mom” and show me cuts that still have blood dripping from them. I kind of feel like she’s purposely sabotaging my attempt at recovery and it’s actually driving me insane