My queen sized mattress is dying. It has a huge depression that only increases in depth with each day. I would like to convert over to a tatami mat + futon style of bedding.
I have wooden slats with 2" of spacing between each slat. Is that too large of a gap for a tatami mat & futon?
I initiated the conversation. It was gentle, but we both cried a lot and told eachother how great we both were. I was her first partner who wasn't abusive or impatient with her - we never fought. She made me feel seen, soothed, loved, and appreciated more than anyone ever had. But, in our 6 months of dating, she only met a few of my friends, and I only spent usually 1 night per week with her. She described going out of the house with me and taking a trip with me as beyond her capacity. I wanted to see her more and integrate her with my friends a little more, but she always seemed at or beyond her capacity. She was extremely introverted, but I kind of thought that was special.
I feel terrible for wanting to more of her. Maybe if I was more independent or kept busy, I would've been ok with just seeing her once or twice per week. But, she felt a little far because of that. She had an inkling it wouldn't be sustainable over the longterm, and I knew that somewhere in my gut, too. Rather than growing tired, more unsatisfied, and resentful, I wanted to close things on a high note. We closed things on a note where we still feel attraction, desire, and longing for eachother.. And that makes this so hard.
It's these preferences we have that feel like they ruin something great. I can't shake this feeling of regret and bargaining for what could be had I been more patient or independent.
Is this thinking normal? Did we make a huge mistake here?