u/ExtensionTea9457

I want yall to be completely honest. I don't wanna talk to some ai chat bots so please help me out and maybe guide me.

I've always had a keen interest in the violin. I begged my mom for 2 years to get her to buy me one. My violin was around 8k rupees (100$\~) , this was when I was in 7th grade.

It was my first week of playing , and I was going pretty good at the basics ! But when I showed my mother that she suddenly just snapped. She was telling me "I paid so much money , and put so much effort in getting you a teacher and you play this trash". She compared me to my brother ( who is really good at music - guitar and piano). I was honestly crushed I mean if it was anyone else id ignore it but my own mother saying that to me even though I worked so hard to practise , but as any angry kid I told her that if she thought it was so easy she should try it for herself and then I shoved the violin at her.

She tried to make up for it for maybe like a week. But after that things went back to the same. No matter what , I lost my confidence in playing the violin infront of others and my self-esteem. My interest just stopped because in the eyes of my mother ( and brother) I was a failure and I couldn't learn.

I still do classes , and my mom comes and tells me how she pays so much and that I don't practise.

But I do practice, I'm trying to get my confidence and interest back. It's just that whenever I practise she come in my room lecturing me how my brother used to practise guitar all day long and that's how he got good , and that I should do that too.

Frankly right now I don't have the luxury of time to practise all day long , and nor is my interest better. I thought that first I'll practise every day for an hour and as I get better I'll try to increase the time. But she just refused to listen to me.

My brother is no saint either. Last time I practised he sat infront of me telling how I'm a failure and I shouldn't do the violin and I should quit. (Like im not even lying he said this it lowkey sounds straight out of a comic or smth) and then he proceeded to compare himself to me 😃. ( like wtf)

Anyways , I'm taking my time with the violin getting comfortable with practising in others presence and trying to not let myself get bothered by my mom's and brothers words.

If you guys have any tips or advice id love to hear them.

I want yall to be completely honest. I don't wanna talk to some ai chat bots so please help me out and maybe guide me.

I've always had a keen interest in the violin. I begged my mom for 2 years to get her to buy me one. My violin was around 8k rupees (100$~) , this was when I was in 7th grade.

It was my first week of playing , and I was going pretty good at the basics ! But when I showed my mother that she suddenly just snapped. She was telling me "I paid so much money , and put so much effort in getting you a teacher and you play this trash". She compared me to my brother ( who is really good at music - guitar and piano). I was honestly crushed I mean if it was anyone else id ignore it but my own mother saying that to me even though I worked so hard to practise , but as any angry kid I told her that if she thought it was so easy she should try it for herself and then I shoved the violin at her.

She tried to make up for it for maybe like a week. But after that things went back to the same. No matter what , I lost my confidence in playing the violin infront of others and my self-esteem. My interest just stopped because in the eyes of my mother ( and brother) I was a failure and I couldn't learn.

I still do classes , and my mom comes and tells me how she pays so much and that I don't practise.

But I do practice, I'm trying to get my confidence and interest back. It's just that whenever I practise she come in my room lecturing me how my brother used to practise guitar all day long and that's how he got good , and that I should do that too.

Frankly right now I don't have the luxury of time to practise all day long , and nor is my interest better. I thought that first I'll practise every day for an hour and as I get better I'll try to increase the time. But she just refused to listen to me.

My brother is no saint either. Last time I practised he sat infront of me telling how I'm a failure and I shouldn't do the violin and I should quit. (Like im not even lying he said this it lowkey sounds straight out of a comic or smth) and then he proceeded to compare himself to me 😃. ( like wtf)

Anyways , I'm taking my time with the violin getting comfortable with practising in others presence and trying to not let myself get bothered by my mom's and brothers words.

If you guys have any tips or advice id love to hear them.