u/Extra_Fan_5332

Becoming fed up with the general culture on there of wallowing in misery instead of doing anything to help themselves. The lack of self respect and all the circlejerking perpetuating it has inspired a degree of contempt in me. Not primarily directed at users on a case by case basis. I've had good interactions on there.

But, the doomerism has killed people. And that matters more than seething at le heckin "optics nuke sneeds". Say what you want but ar slash ftm or mtf or chicken lady never produced casualties.

I'm also very aggressively pro-HRT towards sex dysphoric people, regardless of cis passing potential. Treating biochemical dysphoria and working with what you have is better than blowing your shit smooth off. Every time. Somehow this is controversial and at this point, I do not believe it is a "LARP" when many tranners try to argue about it.

Might post on here. Might not. Will lurk moar.

I was 6-8 years old and wondered why I could never meet "feminine boys" like how I was just a "masculine girl".

I had no desire to imitate them. I was merely a curious child.

Was depressing learning these kids usually had their femininity beaten or bullied out of them.

Had a lot of male friends growing up and picked up on their mannerisms and social norms. Ignored girls because cooties and there was nothing of value for me there because little kid me knew I wasn't one.

No female insecurities, no concept of systematic misogyny until later female friends talked about it (and even then still had a cringe anti-SJW lolbertarian phase in freshman year), no knowledge of feminine clothes or makeup or expression, no closeness or attentiveness towards my natal sex characteristics.

I grew up mostly insecure about my strength and height, beyond textbook dysphoria. I was pretty weak growing up and lacked in stature. I'd see my male peers move around and do physical shit so effortlessly that it'd make me seethe. I never thought I'd be happy. Seeing your buddies grow older and surpass you physically, it feels like you never grew up.

Talking to a TERF and her expecting me to relate to her struggles is laughable.

Parry parry parry.

I need a male therapist. Talking to women about my problems isn't always bad but they assume I'm crazy fembrained because I'm a transsex man and assume I grew up like a girl and I still fw it.

I didn't and I don't.

I'm running Gentoo on a VM on my third Arch install. I got HaikuOS (not Linux, some other niche bullshit) and Slackware on a shitbox 2007 laptop. I got Ventoy on a USB with ten different distros to use in live sessions on any device with a boot loader I want.

Never fuck with Microslop. They'll sell your train knee secrets to the deep state. Fuck Ubuntu too.

If that's true, it's whatever. We're all dead people then.

I only hope this doesn't cause any problems.

Why would I, or anypoony else for that matter, want to sound like a woman when speaking or singing?

My dysphoria is very specifically directed towards my distinct gynoid anatomical features but what androgenic traits I do have my perception is conflicting.

On one hand, I have bouts of poonfidence about luckshit aspects of myself and on another, it drives the gynoid related dysphoria into overdrive. I am becoming impatient for the testosterone and exercise to do its job in these areas.

I do not find myself as self loathing about my appearance as other trans men here. Still, I don't like looking younger than my age, being on the lower end of moid height, or this androgynous third sexed thing being in the awkward stages of medical intervention.

I begin to wonder why I bother posting to this place until I am reminded via psychological flashbang of the "culture" that other trans subs perpetuate, get pissed off, and come wandering back to 4tran, where I also then become pissed off again.

The solution is to log off but how can I when I have no one I know that is either a trans man or even comes close to being someone I'd get along with or talk to about trans life? Especially if they're entirely enmeshed in sneedpoonry or tenderqueer genderfuck larping which I don't fw in 95% of cases.

There are no 🚂🦵forums that don't suck balls.

My divine punishment for being born transsex.