r/nart4

Especially with how many cis people I know that hate their names

you can just change it

That’s a thing you can do

What would it be, changing out the oil they use?

Like i think someone said something about how 4tran denounces neo nazis but like… idk i feel the obsession with “brow ridges” and “chin shapes” or whatever is a little bit too close to 1900s eugenics to my liking. I don’t know the history of 4tran nor do i particularly care, but it feels like they adopted racist viewpoints about stuff like “skull shape” and “brain cage size”, and put a transmedicalism filter on it. Also doesn’t help im autistic and cant really tell the difference of like. Facial structures. Between any individuals.

Mmmm and also. While i don’t mean to be like oppression Olympics, i very much see a bunch of “oh no these (white) old Christian ladies think im (white) weird!” Can you imagine that??? Old bigoted people being bigoted towards you???? Imagine if there’s some shitfuck towns with shitfuck white cissoids that would lynch murder you! For something beyond your control!!

I mean of course this isn’t every 4tran user. Obviously there’s gonna be poc in there. I just uh. Haven’t seen any. And many are of other minority groups than just trans, and they’d have the experience of being persecuted before attempting difference gender identities. Regardless, the idea that many seemingly “safe” friends would suddenly hate you because they “didn’t know you were one of them” sucks ass and i hate it. So the obsession with “passing” in order to not get harassed or hated is something i can see the “logic” behind.

But something every person of color has to learn is that there will always be racist assholes that will hate you and will never treat you kindly or equally or fairly based off of some integral part of your identity. I can’t really “pass” as a light-skinned person. Even though i don’t want to be harassed, there will be some i cannot placate and some i theoretically could but it would slowly kill me inside. It pains me to see when someone forgoes parts of their culture and identity so that their asshole boss doesn’t glare at them every shift or some white man doesn’t do that scoff and nodding of his head. You ever see a video of like “lead poisoning stare.” Type of stuff you’d see on an old white guy before he calls the poc next to him on a plane a slur and then gets escorted out.

Anyways. In that scenario it’s pretty obvious that the solution isn’t to become self-hating and wish you were born white and then form a white supremacy group where all the members are brown. But i feel like 4tran subreddits follow a very similar pattern.

In conclusion that’s why I’ve never seen a non-white 4tranner. Because poc have the privilege of being discriminated since birth and get used to it. (These last two sentences are sarcastic)

All the fucking Mods for my videogames are only able to run on Windows! And every time I try to install Wine, an application to allow me to run Windows files on a MacBook, random fucking technical issues occur causing the process to shit itself and die.

Again and again and again. I google a tutorial on how to install the mod, and then a tutorial on how to install Wine. I don’t quite understand either of them, but there’s nowhere on God’s Green Earth that would actually fucking explain it to me in a way I would understand, so I try my best to make up for it.

I follow the tutorials to the letter, as best as I can. Doesn’t work. Try again, modifying it slightly. Random fucking error. Again. Random fucking error.

Goddamnit, I get frustrated and try a different method entirely. This time, it works! ERROR: NO SUCH FILE OR DIRECTORY EXIGO FUCK YOURSELF.

Before I know it, it is 3am and I’ve completed the tutorial five times over, to absolutely zero success. “All you have to do is download the file, open the file, and click on the red button” I DID THAT AND IT DIDNT FUCKING WORK.

You could give me the simplest instructions in the world, designed specifically to work on MacOS, and I can guarantee that every single fucking time I follow those instructions, something in my computer will shit itself and die. Fuuuuuuuuuuck.

I’m worried that this is entirely my own fault for not knowing enough about how computer software works, but god help me I’m too fucking lazy to take the time to figure it out.

EDIT: sorry for using this subreddit as basically a fucking diary. I don’t think it’s against the subreddit rules, but this probably won’t get a lot of traction, for good cause.

I don’t have anyone on my life that I can complain about something this trivial tho, so. Sorry. Might happen again. Hopefully won’t be a vent, but instead rambling about robot porn or something.

Is that I can’t stick it in 19th century artillery:(

two of my favorite bands right now are Newgrounds Death Rugby and Shitty Kickflips. both trans fronted because cissoids cant make music. im looking to branch out a little. any recs? what are your favorites?