I want to be hopeful, but I feel lost.
I (33F) have never posted on Reddit before. I have endometriosis and my husband and I have been ttc for almost 4 years. We've done multiple IUIs and I've never had a positive test. My cycles have historically been intense and very painful, but the last few months have been better(thanks to the research of my incredible husband and more natural supplements than I can count lol) I thought I had a fairly good, and manageable cycle a few weeks ago, but after my period, I started brown spotting for about 5ish days. Figured this was just my body bring unpredictable. Of course, Google said it could be lots of terrifying things, but do take a test. Honestly seemed like a waste of money because they're always negative. Well! To our shock, the test came back VERY positive Saturday night. I still don't know how to believe it after years of hopelessness. However, I began having mild cramping for about 12 hours and the spotting turned red, so we spent the morning in the ER. The doctor is estimating I'm about 4/5 weeks. Hcg level was 1050 but wanted to rule out miscarriage and eptopic. Had a vaginal ultrasound and blood test and it was determined it was to early to have a clear answer, but the radiologist didn't see a clear eptopic pregnancy, but also didn't see anything in my uterus (except the usual endo). So, I'm feeling slightly better that it might not be eptopic but still so uncertain. What really scares me is this evening I've started bleeding a lot more- like a period with some clotting. I called the ER and they said to follow up with my ob tomorrow. I'm so worried that I'm going to lose this pregnancy. Such a helpless feeling. Has anyone had similar experiences? I just want to have hope ❤️