u/Extra_Plantain3475

Saw my straight gym crush again, 2 months ata ko siyang di nakita, 2 weeks before mag end yung membership ko, i didn't get the chance to see him. Pero kanina, it was my first day again sa gym and gulat ako he was there, akala ko kasi he was gone na or lumipat na pero caught off guard lang. Alam mo yung parang nakaka move past ka na sa feelings mo, then it all cameback makita mo lang siya ulit? Still sobrang pogi pa din. 🥹 We used to smile at each other pero natigil na, didn't bother looking at his direction din kasi ayoko na i feed yung delulu ko. 😅😂

Yun lang naman. Hahahahaha mukhang I'll be changing schedule na juat to avoid him. 😂

Akala ko solusyon sa pagiging sore loser ko is pag nagpapayat ako. Akala ko kahit papano mas lalawak yung access ko when it comes to hookups or meeting someone.

I really don't want to diminish my progress so far pero di ko maiwasang hindi malungkot. Still olats? Ganun ba talaga ako kapanget?

I really don't know bakit ang malas ko pag dating sa relationships, sa hook ups hell even having gym friends. . Di na naman ako suplado sa gym, kasi i tried smiling but i always get ignored? Tas i had this sudden boost of confidence so i tried grinder again, maski di goodlooking di na nag rereply, ang nakakainis pa, nag sabi na ko na iblock nalang if pass pero left on read din.

Bakit ganito?? Parang every moment of my life pinaparamdam sakin lagi na di ako attractive? Na di ko deserve na tignan? Like parang daily dose of reality lagi. I don't want it to affect me pero grabe eh. 😭

Sorry i just really want to vent this out. Life can be really cruel. 😭

I currently have my visa classic, tapos may bench card na paparating, and kakatawag lang nila kanina na approve ako for another card which is yung gold, this was supposed to be an upgrade since i applied dati pero based sa usapan namin, it's a completely different card but with a shared credit limit sa visa classic ko. Tanong ko lang, natanggap ko na din naman, should i activate my gold mastercard tas ipa cancel ko nalng yung visa ko? Or Is that even possible?