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I recently went through a psychotic depression episode in February and really upturned my life

starting today I've been really upset about my ex partner and leaving my graduate program and have been randomly crying when thinking about it? it only started today even though I have been upset about these things to an extent before this

how do people deal with random crying spells? feeling fine and then randomly becoming really upset? im also worried im entering a depressive episode or some sort of episode in general

im going to keep track of my mood for the next few days and then see if I need to adjust my meds

any and all thoughts and advice would be helpful and thank you in advance

I recently went through a psychotic depression episode in February and really upturned my life

starting today I've been really upset about my ex partner and leaving my graduate program and have been randomly crying when thinking about it? it only started today even though I have been upset about these things to an extent before this

how do people deal with random crying spells? feeling fine and then randomly becoming really upset? im also worried im entering a depressive episode or some sort of episode in general

im going to keep track of my mood for the next few days and then see if I need to adjust my meds

any and all thoughts and advice would be helpful and thank you in advance

I'm still recovering from an episode I had in feb where I lost my significant other, took a leave of absence from school and a lot of friends and I just want to vent because I feel like even though im making progress and definitely getting better, it's still so hard

I'm finally enjoying things again and forcing myself to do things I used to enjoy even though it's hard, being social again, and enjoying eating again

but I'm still feeling so stuck in this episode, even though it's over

I'm still missing the people I lost because of my actions and I've been dreaming about my ex recently and it's so hard to try to let go and move forward because mostly what I do with my days in go to work and go home

I'm in therapy twice a week and compliant with my medications

I guess what I'm trying to say is that this period of my life is difficult and I just want to fast forward a year when I'm back in school and busy and over everything that happened

I have friends and family and people who love me but I still miss the people I lost and I feel lonely and life feels so slow if that makes sense

I've been trying to avoid checking social media and keeping busy but it all just sucks a bit

does anyone have advice/faced the same sort of feelings? how do you cope with them?

had a bad episode a few months ago and it really screwed up my life

I've been mostly better these last few weeks but I've noticed I've been ruminating on the people I lost during this episode and having a lot of paranoia around them

how do people stop ruminating/move forward? I know it's easier said than done