This is Ender. 2.5 years ago, my girlfriend(ex) came home with him. My girlfriend(ex) owned the home he stayed in. She had kids and a better yard. I had never had a dog, and I never experienced the PROFOUND love that comes with it. I was the one who took him on ALL of the walks, trips, training, cleanup, etc. He slept with me spooning him. I was his hooman. He has my soul. And I, his. 6 months ago, I caught her cheating. We broke up. Since she had 2 kids, 8 y.o. and 10 y.o., she kept the dog, and I got custody 1-2 nights per week. She went bipolar 5 weeks ago and completely cut me off from him. Since she is so toxic, i feel relieved to not deal with her anymore. But, I have no rights to him, so I am just screwed. I can't go bang down her door. She would get a PPO anyway.
I didnt get to say goodbye. I didn't know I would never see him again. It's as if I am mourning his funeral. I am terribly sad. He was my best friend, truly.
Can anyone hear/see him?
Does he know i love him? Does he think i abandoned him? Does he miss me? Is there anything I can do?