





dinner is a roast. beef sandwich and some cookies.
i’m a 35 year old male, ive been living on my own since i graduated high school back in 2009, and ive been living in my most recent house for two years. the only time there’s another person wit me is when i have ppl over or my son comes over as part of the custody plan. lately the last few nights, ive been feeling a severe amount of anxiety when tryna go to sleep. like “what if i wake up dead” or “there’s somebody in the house”.
like i’ve said i’ve been living alone for 17 years and been living in my last house since 2024, and this shits never happened til last night when i was by myself in my room and my son was sound asleep down the hall. seriously. i tried to go to sleep earlier tonight and it’s happening again. i don’t think i need therapy because this has never been a problem til now. what’s happening?
1: ice cube and korn.
2: dmx and sum 41.
3: eminem and marilyn manson.
my older brother: sum 41, blink 182, good charlotte, nfg, simple plan.
me as an older brother: linkin park, incubus, staind, pod, creed.
before i discovered this aesthetic i still had an idea of a 2000s older brother who plays in a punk band, has a soda addiction, and is overall just a rebellious teenager. so when i discovered this aesthetic i was like “who stole my idea. i think it also resembles my teen self, a rebellious kid who listens to nu metal and has a soda addiction. just a thought…
i took this pic back in november before the american dew cans came out