u/Fa_90

I’m 36 and I’m almost 1 year PP . Didn’t gain much just 22 Ib and did not have DR. Had an active pregnancy and my breastfeeding journey didn’t go as planned , so I lost all the weight by 4 months PP (yes lucky I know) I can fit back into to my old clothes and jeans . BUT my body is wider by 2 inches and my tummy is “soft” .

And even though I’m back to the same weight , my body does not look the same .. Should I move on and simply accept it as “as good as it gets” ? Or try to go crazy with my diet and workout and hope for the best ?

Just to say I have never ever resented my partner this much until my baby got sick for the first time .

Baby and I are both sick , and with sleepless nights my body isn’t recovering like it is supposed to I’m dead ! Baby is one year old but still wakes up multiple times at night and sadly because of his illness he only wants me (mom) to care for him . Not his dad . Also wants me to carry him around all day and be his in house entertainment . Which I usually gladly do , but right now i’m just exhausted (even my garmin told me to rest)

Right now i’m filled with so much irrational hate and resentment towards my husband and thinking to myself how did i get myself here , how did i end up being the default parent while he enjoys life and gets to sleep a minimum of 5 hours per night (yes i would kill for 5 hours that’s how pity i’m ) . Why is my baby preferring me over him ? Is it an energy thing , can baby sense my exhaustion like he senses hot meals and coffee ?

Have you ever been sick with baby at the same time ? Did you want to run away and start a new life ? Get a divorce ? Get admitted into the hospital just to have an excuse to relax ? Give up to Ms.Rachel’s witchcraft and let your baby zone out for days ?

In all seriousness , i’m just tired . Any tips or anecdotes would help . Is this normal ?