cant seem to forget about him
i dont know if this is the right place to post this on but i need to tell someone and cant rlly tell my friends. back in 5th grade i had a crush on a guy in my class, pretty strong crush that lasted 4 years , he moved to another city in 9th grade. i somewhat forgot about him but obvi u dont forget a 4 year long crush that easily. from time to time he’d come to school to visit and Never once spoke to me which lowk irritaed me and just deepened my dislike for him. im in 12th grade now (17 going on 18) and the past few weeks have been reallly weird. it usually happened that i thought about him again and checked his instagram and then got disinterested immediately but this time its really weird. i cant seem to stop thinking about him, it feels like (maybe im just psychotic) hes coming or something , maybe im insane but i have this feeling that we are lowk gonna be together this year and its so random and such ab odd feeling because we havent spoken ( like an actual conversation, let alone hello) since 9th grafe when he left (we just saw each other during those visits he made) i dont even really know what im writing here but i just want some advice frim someone, am i losing my shit, am i being too nostalgic or is something gonna happen? is there a way to know other than to wait out the time. i fear that when he visits school this summer hes just gonna walk past me like always but this time ill care and be hurt. dont know what to do ? SOS 😕😕