u/Fair_Group_2557

When I was 5, my parents used to fight almost every day. When I was 15, they used to fight every week. Now am 25.... fights have reduced over the years, but they never completely stopped. I know disagreements happen everywhere, but yelling at each other on small issues is never the solution.

I’m doing WFH right now, and today my parents again started yelling at each other over something as stupid as food. I didn’t interrupt them and just went back to my room to continue my work, but suddenly a realization hit me hard this house gave me so many issues. That’s probably why I’m so quiet, why I avoid disagreements, and why I immediately shut down and leave the place as soon as I see even the slightest bit of conflict. And the biggest gift I've received *ANXIETY*.

tldr: He makes more female friends than male friends on his solo trips and adds them on Instagram. And this makes me feel insecure.

He’s a travel freak and travels a lot . Meanwhile, I’m not really that into traveling... for me, once a year is enough.

One thing I’ve noticed is that whenever he goes somewhere, the first thing that changes is his Instagram following. He always add girls he met there.

I remember one incident from last year. We were supposed to go to Rishikesh together (that time, we were friends). I had booked a separate room for myself, but due to an emergency, I had to return home from the airport. I met him there and told him my situation. Since I had booked a premium room and didn’t want the money to go to waste, I told him to use my booking instead.

There, he met a girl who was having trouble finding a place to stay because she didn’t have enough money to book a bed for more days. He gave his bed to her since he was already staying in my room. That was thoughtful of him, but he ended up spending the entire trip with her. They went for sunrises together and explored the city together. At that time, I felt bad because we were kind of dating, but we weren’t official yet, so I didn’t say anything and tried to forget about it.

Then in December, he went on another solo trip. Again, he met new girls there, and they explored the city together. This time we were committed, so I felt bad, but since there were boys in the group too, I stayed quiet again.

I generally consider myself a secure person because I’ve spent years working on myself, and I know the value I bring into someone’s life. But his habits make me feel insecure sometimes.

Rn, he’s on another 10days solo trek, and within just two days he has already made new female friends there. From his Instagram stories, I can see that he spends most of his trekking time around them. This morning he facetime me at 5 AM to show me the sunrise, and although there were many people there, the person standing closest to him was a girl, not any of the men.

Sometimes I genuinely wonder why he always seems to connect more with women than men during his trips. I know, as a woman myself, that we don’t usually become friendly with every stranger so quickly, especially while traveling.

He says he has no interest in other girls except me, and once when I told him that if he didn’t truly have feelings for me he could leave, he started crying and telling me how much he loves me and how much I mean to him.(It was him who insisted on getting into the relationship and said that he loves me a lot.)

But this particular habit of constantly seeking attention or companionship from other women makes me feel really sad. I’m usually not someone who gets affected by things easily, but when it comes to him, I’m sensitive because I love him and attached to him.

His constant pattern of adding girls on Instagram after every trip makes me upset, and sometimes I wonder....am I actually being insecure, or am I recognizing a pattern?