r/OffMyChestIndia

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me and my bf had an argument and he said something that made me feel like his love was conditional, and after arguing more he realized and apologized and said "not unconditionally but i'd give my life for you" and then proceeded to say "not unconditionally = if there's comes a point where you and my mom/ sista are taken at a gun point and i had to choose one. I'd choose them" guys am i going insane im spiraling over this

I just want to rant about my story here.

I'm an introvert from South India. I completed my BCA in 2024, and during college, I met a Catholic girl. I'm Hindu, but religion was never a problem for me.

We dated for 3+ years. I genuinely loved her and was completely invested in the relationship. But after around three years, things started changing. She became interested in someone else and eventually committed to another guy. She also told me that what I considered love and care sometimes felt like possessiveness to her.

She left me while we were doing our MCA, even though we were in the same class.

The ironic part is that before joining MCA, I actually told her that maybe we should go to different colleges and stay in touch instead. I knew that being in the same class might make things complicated. But at that time, she insisted that we should join the same college and be in the same batch.

After she left me, my mental state completely fell apart. I loved her so much that it took me a long time to accept what had happened. I tried asking for forgiveness a few times and tried to fix things, but eventually I realized I had to accept reality and move on.

Now comes the part that really hurts.

I was always a good student and, honestly, probably one of the more tech savvy people in my batch. She barely knew much about data analytics. For example, during one group project with four people, she didn't really do the data analysis herself. I ended up doing almost everything for the project, while she mainly collected the survey responses.

Now college is over.

She got a data analyst job in Dubai through her sister, who already lives in the UAE.

And here I am, still struggling to get a proper job.

The part I find difficult to accept is that I had an 8+ CGPA, while she had a 6+ CGPA. Her family is financially well off, while I already have around ₹4 lakh in education loans.

Getting a job abroad has been one of my biggest dreams for years. She knew how badly I wanted it too.

And now, somehow, she's living that life while I'm still here trying to figure out what to do next.

I'm not saying she doesn't deserve her job, or that I'm entitled to anything just because I worked hard. I know life doesn't work that way.

But honestly, it feels incredibly unfair.

I spent years loving someone, supported her through college, worked hard on my own career, maintained good grades, built technical skills, and still can't seem to catch a break.

Meanwhile, the person who broke my heart seems to be doing completely fine and has the exact kind of life I always dreamed about.

I know comparing myself to her isn't healthy. I know her success isn't the reason for my failure.

But when you're already struggling, it's hard not to look at someone who hurt you and wonder, "Why did everything work out for her while I'm the one left behind?"

That's basically where my life is right now. I don't really know what I'm expecting from posting this. I guess I just needed somewhere to let it all out.

The relationship is not working out for me and I'm not able to tell her. She's so kind and lovely, I don't want to break her innocent heart.

A man committed suicide and evryone is posting about him but in comments evryone is just focused on the amount of alimony he was asked to pay.

Bc wo margya yeh kafi nh h ? Kitne paise k wjhase mara yeh important h kya ? Hw tf is that even relevant .

1 mark se fail hone pe b koi suicide kr sakta h ...iska matlab uska suicide zyada imp h jo 10 mark se fail hua ??

Men/women evryone is trying to prove the alimony amount he had to pay. Bc kya chutyo ho be tum sb

Wtf is wrong with all of u people... Can't u see he died , how could u focus on money and alimony amount.

Evrytime I see such comments I feel disgusted .

Only those who have tried to off themselves know how hard it is.

My life is basically over. I'm 25, still never had a job, no skills, resume empty, AI is killing all jobs and idk what to do. My home is very depressing and I'm currently doing masters from a shit college and I dread going back home. Idk what I'll do if I graduate unemployed and have to go home. I don't know who to ask for internship. People with good resumes keep applying to 100 jobs and hear nothing. I don't even have any friends or network or anyone I can rely on. I feel so alone. I've had no good experiences in my shit little life. Moreover I don't even want to work because I like my free time to live how I want and I hate being told what to do or how to live but that is just the price you pay to live in society. I can't imagine any version of life I'd like to live. I hate that I was born, I hate my parents, I don't want to exist anymore, I've never been happy in my whole life and I don't even want to get better anymore, I'm done. I don't even go to classes anymore, my cgpa is low and I'm seriously on the verge of dropping out. I just sleep most of the time in my hostel room. I've posted my life woes so many times on reddit but I've never found any useful responses. No one really helps irl too. Idk what I'm going to do. Everyday I wake up in the morning and think how good it would be if I never saw another day again. I've nothing to live for.

I often find myself shaking feeling anxious I try to control it nothing really works. I feel empty all the time it doesn’t matter how I talk with I don’t feel like doing anything I keep thinking what should I do to feel better it doesn’t really work. Everything feels like shit

I currently have a case going on in the court regarding a discrepancy in my 10th marksheet. The case is being dragged on and on and it is becoming absolutely painful as prospects of getting a job is hindered. Never imagined my life would destroyed like this

In 2024, I sent a gift to my ex-girlfriend’s house by courier, but she sent it back to my home. It’s still sitting there unopened, and my family thinks she actually sent me a gift. 😭

20M took a drop year to prepare for CAT and along the way got into gambling and now I'm in debt of about 20k and can't really talk about this to anyone. Looking back everything was fine in college last year but this year really put me at rockbottom, I won't be fine for a long time also can't do any job because am afraid it might hinder my preparation not that it's going very well because of all this stress.
I'm not looking for a lecture or for anyone to tell me if it will be fine I just wanted to say it out loud,
If any of you have been through a similar situation PLEASE tell me how you got out PLEASEE

so i never told anyone about this, i was molested and basically graped or forced into sex by one of my family member this happened when i was 7 or 8 years old and i didn't understand any of it i was never told about good and bad touch i didn't know how to react and he scared me saying my parents will beat me badly if i tell them so i stayed quiet he did that act 2 times then i stopped talking to that family member eventually i stopped talking to almost every person around me i stopped going out to play i stopped with my hobbies i basically have been isolating myself for basically a decade now nobody knows anything about this,

all this have costed me my life i believe i don't have any friends as i believed everyone will be like him i dont know how to interact idk how to make friends i dont talk at my home i just live in my room and pass my time i used to be into books and study and believe if i get good grades my parents might celebrate it and oneday i can tell them the truth but it never happened i got 92 in tenth but was still compared to a guy in class who scored 96 and was called useless i dropped studying too after that i got 65 in 12th, i am currently in clg rn i feel like i have lost everything i have no skills no hobbies i dont even dream about what i want to do in life what i want to be

from the past 4 months every night i have thought to disappear to kill myself and just end it all but i get this slight hope and it saves me every time, i have started to rely heavily on porn to pass time and started to develop grape kinks but i dont want to i dont but theres nothing else to do i have been isolating myself for so many years i have forgotten how to interact or maybe i never knew how to, i have been going to clg for almost 1.5 years and i have made only 1 friend and like its not even that good of a friendship i picked up ciggerates at 15 to cope up with all this loneliness

i just wanted a normal life or loving parents or just some frineds ididnt bget any how can life be this unfair i dont know anything or anyone i dont have any hobbies any skills, and i dont even know why am i sharing all this now but i hope it gets better even just a little bit or it all just get over

i hope nobody ever gets to live the same as me so helpless

Kabhi kabhi sochti hu ki Sayed yhi meri kismat hai
21 age me shadi fr 23 me baccha sb kuch flow flow me ho gya ab 30 ki hu to lgta hai sb kuch chutt gya jo zindagi me Krna tha nai kar payi jo banna chahti thi nahi ban payi
Pta nahi meri kismat itni khrab keu hai
Jb se shadi hui hai tb se aisa lg rha jaise abhi raste band ho gye hai job ke liya try kru to skills nahi hai bussiness bhi kiya bt family supportive nahi hai daily ke jhagde chik chik hai inke kbhi kbhi to aisa lagta hai jaise kisi glt jagha me fas gyi hu
Log kehte hai
Shadi ke bad life badal jati hai
Socha ni tha aise life badal jayegi
Kabhi marne ka mn krta hai
Andr se ghutan si hoti hai
Daily wohi jagha me chik chik sunte rho
Dum sa ghut jata hai yarr kya kru
Bacche ki responsibility
Husband army me
Yeh army walo ko kbhi shadi ni krni chahia yeh mai kehti hu
Or gahr me na nand se banti hai rishtedar bhi devrani bhi toxic kbhi sochti hu to lgta hai koi friends hi nahi mera kya mai glt to nahi khi ?
Mai shant rahna chahti hu
Mujhe normal life pasand hai
Or kabhi baithi baithi rooo deti hu akele me
Kaha gyi woh ldki
Jo sbke dilo me raj krti thi kaha gyi woh
Ldki jisme itna potential tha
Life koi snga hami lekr pojtive thi
Bs kuch Krna tha nam kmana tha
Aisi ahh thi bs kuch krke hi dm lungi
Yeh krungi woh krungi
Abhi udaas si baithi rahti hu kuch krne ka mn ni krta depression c ho gyi hai mar bhi nahi skti chta baccha ahi mera 8 sall ka
Usko dekhti hu mere marne ke bad koi isko khana bhi Ni dega pti se bat bhi nai hoti army duty jo hai or woh mere halato ko janta hai bt kuch nahi kr skta
Alg reh lu to kaha rhu possible hi nai hai or
Is gahr me mai har din mar rhi hu
Meri kismat me rona aa rha ahi mujhe
Yeh bhagwan kuch Ni hota sb jhut hai
Ni to us bhagwan ko mere upr trs
Ni ata agar sach me hota to ?
Maine kya manga hai ? Paisa ghar luxury life ?????
Nahi bs ek sahara bs ek sahara chahia mujhe jine ke liya ek hope chaia bs
Acha masla n kbhi ange badne ka tha hi Ni usne yeh kiya usne woh kiya kuch Ni tha masla tha to bs khus hone ka apne hisab se jine ka bs

It was the first day of my internship today and I didn’t go because I was feeling anxious restless and panicking like i was about to die. I boarded the train but just not able to hold back my tears so I decided to call off and return. I felt horrible this way I don’t be able to do anything in life. Similar situations have happened with me before as well before an important event i get scared i panic and start vomiting. I have been on anxiety medication in the past and currently in therapy where I have discussed this. I have talked about this and given grounding tools but its like I can’t think logically my brain just treats certain events like its war or something
Even right now the thought of this internship is making me nervous like i am unprofessional today i could do this what about tomorrow and rest of my week
I wish I could just switch off my brain or my thoughts

I don't know what I'm living for anymore. Like, what is this life actually for? Just handling responsibilities? Doing what you're supposed to be doing because everyone else is doing the same?

It's not like I don't want to fulfill my responsibilities. I just don't find much joy in my day-to-day life.

I don't really have friends I can talk to. I mean, there are one or two people, but there's no real connection where they're actually available to talk about life and shit.

I'm at a marriageable age, but I haven't had much of a social life. I got a well-paying job, but I've been working remotely for the last 5.5 years, so there hasn't really been much opportunity for a social life either.

I got laid off last month, and that made everything worse. Now I'm constantly thinking, what happens if I don't get another job in the next 2–3 months?

Being the only son comes with a lot of responsibilities. My family's financial situation hasn't been great either, so I can't just ignore everything, take a break, and simply do whatever makes me happy.

I don't know. Sometimes it just feels like I'm living because I'm supposed to keep going.